Peraya journey

32. Everything is messed up

Krist said while smiling, " Phi I just wanted to show our future kids that their Pa is in first year when their por is in fourth year".

Singto suddenly looked at krist's face after what he had heard while Krist also looked at Singto's face with an embarrased expression after what he had just said to the man.

Singto pulled krist towards him and said "why are you embarrased now? I also love the idea and...Do you know that our country allows surrogacy? We can have four, five children or as much as we want to".

Krist opened his eyes wide, clearly shocked.

" Phi! Two is enough"

" But I would love to have more children than that.... You know, I am a single child so I really want to have a big family".

But Krist shaked his head quickly.

" No! It would be too tiring! I  would like to have only two children".

"Oh.. ok, we will do as you say, kit", answered Singto while pouting a little.

Krist, looking at the man that was in front of him, cleared his throat and then asked him: "Phi, are you really looking forward to have a family with me?"

Singto, smiling happily, nodded while taking Krist's hands in his.

"Yeah! I have been very sure about my ideas and dreams since I started courting you, after all... my whole world is you. You know... sometimes I could not even believe that my feelings towards you are this strong and... I don't want to think what is good or what is bad anymore. If...If our country doesn't allow male 'n' male marriages and we are unable to marry in some other country, I wouldn't have any objection on having an unnamed relationship with you. I will endure any pain if you are with me".

Krist lost his voice for a couple of minutes, too shocked with Singto's words. Finally, he sighted while letting his gaze rest on the ground.

"Phi! I...I don't know what to say" - he started to tell him- "At this moment my feelings are not as strong as yours. I love you... I really do and I also like to be with you. I even feel jealous when anyone approaches you but... Being in an unnamed relationship for a lifetime? I can't give you any assurance that I will be able to endure it and... You also know that two people's feelings never are the same. Even if they are a couple , friends or  just siblings. I... I don't..."

Singto, with a worried expression on his face, stop Krist for finishing his phrase.

"Kit! I believe in my love and I am sure that one day you'll love me as much as I do!"

Krist frowned, but didn't anwered him anything. Finally, a couple of seconds later, the boy sighted while diverting his gaze from Singto.

"Phi! My legs are starting to hurt by standing like this. Shall we go to the cafeteria?"

Singto nodded, smiling lightly but... his gaze was showing a little how sad he was with Krist's thoughts.

A couple of minutes later they sat facing eachother while ordering some ice Cream.

"Phi, there is no need for you to love me more than this... Actually, I am already overwhelmed with your caring nature. Do you know you're the first person in my life who showed me this much care? You know... my parents loves me so much but they are always busy with their work so my grandparents were the ones that took care of me. Yes...I know this is of a different type but... When I am with my friends they also care for me, but not as you. When I was with Pinky, I used to pamper her a lot and she loved it so much...She also worried about me and took care of me but...  it is still not the same"