Hardly Living

Stop trying please

Buckys POV

I've been looking for Clint for a while now. He disappeared as soon as we arrived back at the tower. The mission we were sent in was a complete failure and so Steve and Natasha were sent instead.

I looked in Clint's room and for some reason on mine..?
I sighed and looked up at the wall in front of me

" Jarvis... "

"Yes? "

" can you locate Clint?"

" I'm sorry but he wishes to not be disturbed at the moment. "

I sigh and keep looking around. Until I heard a sob.

"Clint? "

I whisper to myself .
It was coming from the vents

I open up the vent in the hallway and crawl around on the surprisingly big and clean vents. Eventually there's a big opening in the middle where all the vents meet, tall enough to stand and wide enough to be a small bedroom.

And there Clint was smack down in the middle. wrapped around a messy nest of blankets.

I get closer and he jumps up at seen me. He must not have his hearing aid on then

I softly smile at him as he sits up and tries not to look at me.

" what are you doing here... "

He asks and I shrug

" you seemed sad when we got here, so I wanted to check on you. "
I say and he nods

" listen... Clint.. about the kiss. I wanted to say that... well I love you.. I've liked you for a long time now. I just didn't know if you were.. you know.. "

I say.

He flinched and turns away from me He was shaking

" NO! stay out of my life! I've hurt enough people already I.... I don't want to hurt you too."

He says and I frown.

" Clint it wasn't your fault!
you didn't kill them!
And I'm sure that if they were still he-"

I was interrupted by Clint slapping me.
He states at me. Tears forming in his eyes.

" THATS JUST IT! THEY AREN'T HERE!
THEY ARE DEAD BECAUSE OF ME! BE CAUSE I WAS TO WEAK TO SAVE THEM! "

Clint cries as he looks at me.

" Clint.."

"STOP please.. just go away.. "

I sigh and walk over to one of the vents not caring which one. I end up in Natasha's room. I was about to walk out of her room when she held me back.

" buck.. "
She says

" give him time.. I know he loves you to.. he's just afraid. "

I turn around and she hugs me
I start crying

" I know.. "
I say and she sighs

" you know.. he wouldn't shut up about how much you've helped him. He loves you.. But he just needs time. "

She says and I nod. I open the door to her room and walk out. Steve was there with a soft expression on his face. That's when I realize that we were in the vents. And everyone heard the conversation. At least what was yelled out.

I sighted and he hugged me. He walks me to my room and I just sat there. Tired and worried.. I fall asleep.

-I know this is kinda short... but I really couldn't make this an more dramatic without turning it in to an even bigger cliche. Lol.

Anyway hope you enjoyed!! And like I said I'm going to post the last two chapters at the same time so be ready!!

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