Not What I expected

Chapter 5

Chapter 5:

I walked into the doctor's office with Valerie and her mom, Milly. Everyone in the waiting room was pregnant and all adults. I didn't belong in this place and I knew it. All the women were giving me dirty looks. They have no idea what I'm going through.

"Olivia" The nurse called when it was my turn.

I got up and Val came with me and we went in together. The nurse led us into a small examination room.

"Here, you're going to need to change into this gown so we can examine you." The nurse said to me as she handed me a short hospital looking gown.

I took it from her and went into the small bathroom attached to the room. When I was done I came back out and was told to lay on the examination table with my legs spread apart. Then Dr. Parkerson, my doctor came in the room and did the examination and then I was able to put my shirt back on, but still not my pants. I was then taken into a bigger room for the first ultra sound.

"So how many months am I?" I asked the lady who was preforming the ultra sound.

"You appear to be 3 months along." She replied nicely.

"You can't tell if its a boy or a girl yet right?" I asked.

"No, not yet, maybe by your next visit you'll be able to tell." She replied and smiled.

"Oh okay." I said.

I kinda wanted to know what it was. He or she.

"The baby appears to be in very good shape and health, you're doing good." She said.

"Thanks..." I said back unsure.

"You're going to need to go and buy some prenatal vitamins for yourself and not eat junk food, stick healthy foods." She said.

"I can do that." I said softly.

I so badly wanted to text Amel and tell him that the baby was healthy and everything, but I knew he wouldn't give a shit. It would be a waste of my breath telling him anything.

I decoded to not go to school for 2 weeks since I was still having horrible morning sickness. When I walked into school the first person I saw was Amel, holding hands with Zoey Harris, the school whore. She was smiling and shaking her blonde hair everywhere.

"Don't pay any attention to them Liv, he's doing this on purpose to make you jealous." Val said to me.

"I'm trying not to..." I said back trying to fight back my tears of anger.

I stood by my locker and checked my cell phone for texts when Amel came up to me. Zoey was nowhere in sight.

"Um, Hey..." Amel said nervously.

"What do you want?" I asked him meanly.

"I just wanted to check up on you, you know, see how you are doing." Amel replied.

"Why?" I asked him with an attitude.

"Because you're carrying my child in you and I wanna make sure you're okay..." Amel replied.

"You didn't seem like you cared the other day." I said.

"I was shocked and scared..." Amel said.

"You think I wasn't?" I said.

"You just seemed like you knew how to handle everything and that you didn't need me." Amel said.

"Well I do need you, but I'm not sure I want your help anymore." I said.

Just his facial expressions say everything that's going through his mind. He dosen't really want to help, he feels obligated to.

"Please Livvie, I love you and we can get through this, give me a chance." Amel begged.

"If you loved me you wouldn't have been holding hands with Zoey Harris just before 1st period started." I said.

He paused. He didn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry...you know how Zoe is she's always flirting shit to every guy she comes in contact with." Amel explained.

"I understand that part, but you seemed happy with her." I said.

"The only person I could be happy with is you." Amel said.

He's lying, he has to be. I don't believe his bullshit. I can't imagine Amel staying with me through this all without having someone off to the side who isn't me.

"Amel...I can't be with you." I said with tears welling into my eyes.

"We're having a fucking baby together and you don't want to be with me?" Amel asked me.

I could hear the anger in his voice. He's mad or upset, but I can't tell which one it is.

"You're lying to yourself that you want to be with me...I know you want Zoe and you know you do too. You can still help me out and everything, but dude, you gotta follow your heart and I know your heart is not wanting me." I replied and tears started to fall.

"I do like Zoe, but Liv, I'll always love you and remember you as the my first love of my life and don't worry I'll help you out with the baby and whatever you need, because that's what's right." Amel said and hugged me tight.

I didn't want the hug to end. I knew what my heart wanted and that was Amel, but I couldn't live to see him be tied down to me and the baby. I did what I had to do even though it dosen't make me happy.