Chasing the Sun - (On Hold✌)

Chapter 5: Empty

Hima took a very deep breath. It was half passed 2 in the morning and only few people were now left at the pool where the party was held earlier.

She sat on one of the loungers and looked at the now empty DJ box. Earlier BB Oppa was playing there. She couldn't contain in her heart the feeling she felt as he was playing, enjoying the stage, the music and the party. He looked more handsome up in the stage. It felt like it was the right place for him.

Her heart skipped a couple of beats and tears just suddenly came falling down her face.

BB Oppa, Thank you so much. I only thought of looking at you from a distance but I was given much more than that. To talk to you, laugh, smile and be just close to you, it was more than I could ever hope for. She tried to smile inspite the tears.

I will continue wishing for your happiness Oppa. Be well, healthy and happy. This is where I'll say goodbye. Please continue to shine, the DJ box is your place, you shine so bright up there. I am so happy Oppa. I may not see you anymore but I will leave with a happy heart.

With heavy heart, she started walking back to her hotel room. But one more time, she turned around and looked at the cabana where BB Oppa said he will be with his friends. It was now empty.

Jealousy filled her heart with the thought that he might be with his girlfriend together in their room.

Stop it Hima. Stop it. Just smile. For his happiness, she thought and forced a painful smile in her lips.

*

Kurt wake up the next day feeling like his head was splitting in two. With eyes still closed he tried to remember everything that happened last night.

After finding the note that must have been left for him by the nameless girl he met, he went back to their cabana, feeling all sad. He doesn't know why but he was really so sad, like a part of his heart was really missing someone. He ended up drinking and drinking till he passed out. He didn't even realized how he was able to return to his hotel room.

He slowly got up, took the bottled water by the table and went out of the balcony. Below he could see the pool where the party was held last night.

It was one hell of a party, he thought. He emptied the bottled water.

"I must have gone crazy," he said looking again at the second floor lounge where just last night, his attention was taken over by a fan he just met. He started shaking his head.

Below, some guests are enjoying the pool, some are having their breakfast at the cabanas, some were simply enjoying the sun, while some young girls were enjoying themselves taking selfies.

She must be around their age, the thought came into his mind and he found himself shaking his head once again. His gaze however returned to them.

A young man, who looks Korean was waving and joined them. He shook their hands and the girl who was sitting by the lounger sat right up and took his hand as well. She was wearing a black cap, grey turtle neck and though he can't see her face, she felt familiar.

She got up and joined her friends. Her body hugging jeans also looks familiar. Suddenly, she turned around to picked up her bag and Kurt felt his jaw fell, all his sleepiness flew away.

He ran to the front door, not even bothering how he looked, or even if his hair looked like that of a birds nest, he just run as if he was racing against time. But the door was blocked by Kim, who was holding two cups of coffee, still his mind was on the girl he met last night. He kissed her cheek then ran passed her, ingoring her calls.

He rushed out, down to the pool area but they were gone. He doesn't know why but he felt like he just wanted to see her again, talk to her and ask something from her. He ran to the lounge and saw them getting into a taxi. He tried running after them but he was too late for when he reached the entrance of the hotel, the taxi was long gone.

With a heavy heart, Kurt went back to his room only to find his girlfriend, Kim with questioning eyes. He really must have gone mad.

Why the hell am I running after a fan I just meet the other night? Why the hell does she feel so familiar, so comfortable. It was so different from the first time I met Kim. And Kim is here standing in front of me, yet why the hell am I full of regret that I couldn't even ask her name, he was full of questions, and he even was staring to doubt himself.

After a few days after, Kurt went back to his daily routine, going to the studio, working on a new song till late night, taking a midnight walk with his dogs, hanging out with friends or just simply bickering with Kim.

It has been days since the party and she has been acting cold towards him. She seems a lot more paranoid too, like she would browse his phone, look for any malicious things he have done. He can't really blame her though, for in just one night, something had definitely change in him.

But somehow, they seem to have been back to normal before she returned to Hongkong. If not for her work, she would have stayed alot longer.

*

"Hima, you're not coming with us again?" asked Sophia. She was looking at her thru her compact mirror as she was busy putting on her blush.

"Pass. I have to finish this before I forget about it," she said not even bothering to look at them. Her hand won't even stop from tapping on her keyboard.

"Common, forgive us already," begged Marie. She stood in front of her. "We really didn't mean it. It was Sophia's fault," she said pointing finger at their friend.

Hima sighed. Sophia looked at her, gave her a guilty look and a peace sign. She wasn't really mad at her friends but she couldn't deny that there was a twinge of regret in her heart.

That night at the pool party, before the end of BB Oppa's show, she just suddenly saw her friends from below the second floor looking all wasted. She rushed to her friends and with Ji Hoon's help, a Korean her friends met that night, she was able to safely take her drunk friends back to their hotel room.

She planned on looking at BB Oppa for a long time, even after the party. She wanted to stare at him, how he laughs with his friends or how he acts when he is with his girlfriend. She wanted to see, even if its going to kill her heart, she still wanted to see. But because of her friends it ended her night early.

"I'm not really mad or anything," she let out a deep sigh again.

"But since the party you won't come with us. You just stayed here inside the hotel, writing," protested Marie.

"I can't help it. After all I really just came here to see Oppa, nothing else. Now that the party is over, I dont have any reason to stay here anymore. That is why I am using this chance to just write," she explained.

"Nonsense," Sophia said rolling her eyes. She got up walked towards them then slammed her laptop. "Let's go. Let's enjoy Korea. I knew your brokenhearted but it wont do you any good if you just shut yourself here. You can write back in the Philippines, but for now, let's have the best time of our lives."

That's what Sophia said and whether she liked it or not, she ended up getting dragged in her friends packed itinerary and somehow it was fun.

The quiet hotel room was indeed making her sad and the time her friends dragged her out felt like the burden in her heart lightened.