moonchild || k.t.h.

the red door - here

taehyung
day 212

it's been months. or is it years?
honestly, i haven't been keeping track anymore.

since that day, i've been marking the days that we'll see each other again. but everyday i lose a little hope when i wake up to an empty blanket covering only me and not you.

i force myself to get up and mark up the tree that holds our missing touch. but every time i do so, i feel even more broken than the day before. with each mark reminding me that you left.

it was worse than torture.

i want to get out of here so bad.
i want to leave this place to go find you.
to bring you back to me.
in hopes of you forgiving me for taking so long.

but i don't know how.
so i just wait.
i hope you forgive me as i can't do much.
i hope you remember me.

but i couldn't wait any longer.

aimlessly walking through this endless forest, i find myself at the waterfall. the same waterfall you told me you loved me.

i told myself i'd never come back here. not after that day. and not after the day you confessed your love for me.

but i was desperate. im doing something against my own will for you, y/n. you'll be at the other side waiting for me right?

my eyes started to copy the waterfall, tears dripping down my cold and dead face. this was once such a happy place. why did they have to leave? and why did you have to see it that day?

Before I could try to convince her to turn back, she let go of my arm as she runs up to touch the water. "Whoa.." she plays with the water falling from the rock from above.

I knew what this meant. I knew that it would come to this. Am I ready to let go? No. Not yet. Not like this. Why did the grey sky show no expression when the rain was pouring in my heart?

Ive come across this before. I know what the waterfall holds beyond its rushing liquids and I'm afraid. Afraid she'll succumb to its beauty and soon it'll become irresistible. I have to do something. I can't let her leave me.

I rushed over to her who was now trying to drink the pure river. As soon as I got to her, I wasted no time to pull her up against me. Her body slammed against my chest and her hand was on my shoulder, trying to balance herself from my sudden force.

i never told you what happens on the other side of the waterfall. because if i let you see it, you'd never want to come back here with me. i couldn't let you do what the others did to me. so i distracted you. by placing my lips to your sweet ones, you fell for my distraction and safely, i made sure we left that place with no attachment intact.

if i didn't avert your attention elsewhere, would you stay with me after seeing what the waterfall holds y/n? or would you leave too?

i slowly approach the damn thing and let the little droplets bounce off my ankles. i wince at the feeling. i used to love the water, did you know that? but after it took what was the most important thing to me at that time, i couldn't look at it the same. not without panicking.

i'm coming y/n. please wait for me.

i close my eyes and walk through the waterfall. feeling the rocks stab my feet again as if telling me to look the other way. that this was the wrong decision.

the heavy rainfall gushing over my head, pressuring my head to crack open.

i would do anything for you, y/n. even this. this is all for you.

after what feels like forever, i made it to the other side. the same very red door awaits me as before.

with lots of pent up frustration at myself for hesitating, i finally opened the creaky door.

people.

i see people. they're alive and well as before.

they're busy moving though. like always.

i take a step and see a little boy drop his small teddy bear in front of me.

almost as if i forgot, i smiled and bent down to pick up the little thing. but the little boy was quicker. he picked it up and ran into me.

or ran through me, i would say.

my hand gripped the invisible air as i bit my lip, looking like a pathetic fool.

oh right, they can't see me.

with a sigh, i stand back up. dusting off the fact that these people don't even know i'm here.

but im here for one mission.

and that is to find you.

and somehow bring you back to me.

i'm finally here, y/n.