Problems pt.2

DISTURBING 4/5- Crazy Ex

will I ever reach 5/5, IDK but here we go. this one is about one of my crazy Ex, I feel like some people are going to get like salty or something IDK... I mentioned her by using poems and stuff in my original account and tried my best to still be discreet but she still knew and I could tell she did. I want to confront her but I can't because I'm just a pussy... also I want to like tag her or something so you can read her book, theirs a lot of me in there and it makes me sound like such an ass, I wonder if its accurate or not but I don't want her to see this so yeah.

this girl was interested in me for a while, but I didn't know till it was too late

we meet because we had a friend that knew us both  and wanted us to meet, we got along because she was interested in an anime that not many people knew, we were both fans of Yaoi aka (boy x boy) we both had two different favorite characters (yes this is mentioned later on as well) her favorite character was a bit of a ass to my character but was a well known ship with my character as a bottom (as a matter of fact I am a bottom as well) so we would call each other by the nicknames the characters gave each other. she would always make jokes about gay but that was our whole group, she would get along very well with one of my perverted friends, we all acted to hate him and stuff but we all know we love him, of course for those two where know or associated with porn, they where EXTREMELY inappropriate(also important for later on) well here's where things get even worse...

she would make crazy jokes a lot, I mean a lot of people do, but she did it to the point of it got really cringy and still id, not only that like how she was insane, that's not the only cringy thing. She is a COMPLETE weeaboo, trying to imitate characters, even my absolute favorite character she BOUT the wig for, and I'll let you know that that character DID NOT AND WILL NEWER really fit her personality and she can and really never will. last but not least, she keeps one of her eyes covered and when she's sad she once walked away, when she came back she said "oh, you really noticed I was gone-" and she would cut her self off and walk away like it was a joke but she didn't mean it like that and you could tell by her posture and stuffs....

a year later I came out to my friends, I don't this she really liked my decision though, I came out as pan as well but have a preference for guys a bit more, also keep in mind, this girl is not my type, she says she's a top but not the type of top I want I guess you could say.

this is where things are getting creepy she started to hate the new friends I tried to make, when they would come around she would turn to me and whispered "god damn it/bitch/fuck/etc" and when she would get mad or sad she wouldn't tell anyone but instead she would block her self and it sometimes got cringey as she did it just to get attention I cat say much though because I also am an attention whore.... 

get ready because it gets worse and worse as we continue,  sometime next year I realized she was planning on asking me out and this was when I came out to everyone, my family and friends, she said she was questing but we never really cared. I started to freak out as time came closer and closer I also told 2 of my closet friends my 'plans'. she asked me in a note being like "I can be your todobaku to your Deku" and both of my friends said that she can't do it, and I agreed but I decided 'it won't hurt to try it out' I told her one-day face to face and I told her 'it was worth a shot' "it wouldn't hurt to try" or so I thought!

I realized things might not work out with us, I didn't want to break up with her before Christmas and ruin her Christmas so I waited till after Christmas but we couldn't see each other so I told her over text, I tried to get her to respond, I didn't know if she even read them. once she read it she just told me "fuck you" I felt bad and I didn't know how to respond, so I just didn't a few days later she asked me why but I couldn't say, I don't know, we just aren't right for each other.