phantazein • im changkyun

f o u r t y

" im changkyun. stop, this is not real. just kill me! you need to let me go just like what kihyun said! "

the three of them now in the kitchen, changkyun holding a knife in his hand, fia stands in front of him, hyungwon and kihyun at the back watching the two of them debating.

" fia, i don't want to lose you again. i love you. "

" changkyun, you will die! "

" then let me die with you! i don't care about others anymore! i don't care about my real life anymore! i only need you, fia! i would rather live here and die with you in my mind, than kill you and see you dying again! hyungwon, kihyun, please. i don't want to leave her. "

both hyungwon and kihyun look at each other, not knowing what to respond. but then, kihyun starts to voice.

" okay, fine. if you want to keep living in this fantasy then i am too. i won't leave you here and see you die in front of my eyes. you are my only brother i have, changkyun. even if we are just step brothers i still love you like my own. so i will never leave you. i want to be with you and die with you. "

hyungwon sighs. at first he was so confused on what is his own desicion but then, something clicks in his mind. " m-me too. maybe there are no reason for me to stay here. but i have suicidal thoughts ever since three years ago. i.. i have tried several times to commit suicide but i failed. so i think this is the best way for me to end my life. being with you guys, and we will eventually die together. "