phantazein • im changkyun

t h i r t y f o u r

" you know, fia. your decision to left changkyun all alone in his house was  definitely not okay. but thanks god he is now in my apartment sleeping."

says hyungwon, taking his cup of coffee and sipping it slowly. they are both currently in kihyun's cafe to talk about what just happened, but it's also confusing hyungwon because he never saw kihyun around the cafe lately. however, he shrugs the thought off.

" i don't dare to take any risk and tell him that i love him! i am just.. someone living in a computer simulation? i don't even know it, hyungwon. i don't even know who am i. for sure i am not exist anymore in your real life. i am dead. so if i take the risk then what if finally he knew that he eventually have to leave this place? then it would break our heart, both of us. and if i we really get together, he still can't be with me forever, hyungwon. he will die when the times come. you know that, right?  "

hyungwon slowly nods, at the same time a bit surprised at how well he remember his memories even though he is now undergoing some unknown experiment." yeah.. he would be gone. just like hoseok and hyunwoo."

" now you get it, right? why i tried so hard to avoid any relationship blooming between me and changkyun in this computer life? he had it enough before, i left him alone without any notice. and i don't want to hurt his feelings again. "