In these past few months,
I have changed so much.
I went from being sad and scared to be alone, to enjoying the alone time I get to spend with myself. I went from having crappy friends, ones that generally didn't care about me or my well-being, to having amazing friends who pushed me to succeed and make it in life.
When I was younger, I always dreamt of being where I am now. But it was just that, a dream. Nothing more. Not a possibility, or a goal, just a dream. But now, with the right people on my side, and the wrong ones showing themselves, I feel I can accomplish much more than I'd ever thought possible. I am happy with myself, and have learned to love my flaws, I have learned to love myself even in the hardest of times, even when everything went wrong and I felt like it was my fault, I went easy on myself. I kept telling myself "just be patient, things happen for a reason and eventually you'll get to where you need to be. But for now, enjoy the lesson. Enjoy the present, enjoy the moment and the pain because it is teaching you how to be stronger." I can officially say that mentally, I have made it. Mentally I have turned myself around completely, the love I once craved from a stranger I now give myself. The loneliness I once dreaded I now allow in, with no hesitation, because it teaches me to love myself, even when I am alone.
And for the friends that taught me the greater things in life, I love you.
I love each and every single one of you. I love you for staying up with me on the nights I was crying so hard my voice shook and I could barely breathe, I love you for teaching me that love doesn't come from another person, it comes from within ourselves. I love you for teaching me how to harness the pain, and turn it into beauty. I love you for making me strong, and helping me through all the things I was afraid to do alone, I love you for remaining by my side through the good and bad, and I love you for caring when nobody else did.
×J.L.×
