1000 Years: One Shots (Part 1)

60. Dispair

Title: Dispair

Genre: Theoretical

Characters: Toshiro, Bazz-B, Bambietta

Summary: Despair... that's a burning pain to deal with.

Rating: T

Notes: None

A burning sensation pierced his small body and a burning sensation took over his mind. The child's mouth opened slowly and then closed. The next thing he knew he was saying something to Rangiku as he crumbled to his knees. "Retreat."

"Taicho..."

"I said retreat Matsumoto! This is my last order to you! Don't..." The next thing Toshiro knew the man was coming up to him, grabbing the front of his uniform and hauling him up off his feet so he could look the man in straight in the eyes. "So... are you feeling it all ready?"

The boy could feel his body shaking. "Please Matsumoto. He'll kill you as well."

"Put my taicho down!"

"What, you aren't going to listen to your captain's orders?" The man laughed. "Or do you not respect him because you know he's a little kid."

The last part was drawled out in tone. The small taicho however ignored the taunt and instead focused on gripping the man's hands. "Matsumoto... run... live... please."

He watched as the man raised up one finger, causing Toshiro's eyes to snap shut. There then came a cursing sound. "Shit. She listened to you." Then came more taunting as he was given one rough shake. "I thought you were some cocky kid who would react when taunted. However, here you are crying about someone living and dying. Guess what. She abandoned you like you wanted her too."

"Abandoned." The burning sensation increased. "I've been abandoned again. If people don't abandon me they end up dying on me. No body stays. There is no where I belong. I belong to no one." Then came another thought. "Why am I thinking these things."

"You're probably wondering why you're thinking what you're thinking." The man pulled him close so they were nose to nose. "That's the power of that fire bar. It makes you sink into your deepest, darkest most despairing thoughts. I wonder what yours is."

"Ka-chan doesn't remember us. To-chan left us. Nee-chan's dead. All gone."

Toshiro watched as the man frowned suddenly. "How fucking disappointing."

"Why?"

"Family? That's what your big issue is? You've got mommy and daddy issues?"

"I said that out loud..." Toshiro closed his eyes, gritting his teeth.

"Oh hell yeah, you said it out loud. I figured as a child genius you'd be made of tougher stuff like our sweet Baba-chan, but no... you're a complete pansy. No, seriously... you're crying about stuff just like all the other little kids do. She... she gets upset when people tick her off or when she upsets her grand pappy. 'cause you know, he's scary. You on the other hand, cry like a little baby."

"Everyone dies or leaves." Toshiro closed his eyes.

"Ahh yes, serious abandonment issues. You're a piece of work. How the hell did you ever become a..." The man caught something from the corner of his eye. "Shit."

The child taicho felt himself slammed against the ground, the back of his head hitting the ground hard. He blacked out and the next thing he knew there was a light and he found himself in a room with the man. The boy blinked a couple of times. Looking down he saw that his bare chest was bandaged, but the burning sensation in his mind was still there. "Gone. Abandoned. Dead."

One small hand reached out for the bandage and pulled at the bandage to see the hole with a burn in it. One finger of his other hand reached up to feel the inside of the 'emptiness' only to find his hand grabbed. He looked up at the man. "Why?"

The next thing he knew a hand slapped him hard against the face, his body crumpling onto the bed. "How the fucking hell should I know the answer to that question! It's not as if I can read his majesties mind. For some reason he wants you alive. Didn't say anything about you being in pieces though, so behave."

Toshiro's reaction was to then curl up into a ball, wishing that the man would go away. The door opened and a girl's voice could be heard. "Bazz-B... has he waken up yet."

"Yeah..."

"Is he still under the effects of your attack? Is that why he's like that?"

"While I did hit him for being an insolent brat he's got the mental capacity of a three year old. How this brat ever became a captain I do not know. He's nothing like you."

"That's because he's my complete opposite. That's what his majesty..." The girl paused. "His hair."

"I didn't do that. For some reason this freak has this freaky hair." The man lifted the boy up by his hair, causing Toshiro to snap his eyes shut.

"Open your eyes. I want to see your eyes."

Reluctantly Toshiro opened them up part way, only to have them snap all the way open. Words came out of his mouth. "Nee-chan!"

"Say what?" The man pulled the boy so that he was face to face with him again, only to have Toshiro clamp his eyes shut. "Our Baba-chan isn't your sissy you idiot. Crying about how mama can't remember, daddy left and nee-chan died." A sudden flare of reiatsu could be felt right before the sound of a resounding smack. The small taicho felt himself fall back to the bed. "What the hell was that for!"

"Don't you dare speak to nii-sama like that!"

"What?" The man shook his head. "Are you nutters? Or are you trying to play the sympathy card to try and manipulate him. If it weren't for my shot..."

"You! You don't think I wouldn't recognize my own brother? And no, I'm not nutters."

"You're a damn Quincy Baba-chan! How could your brother be a damn Shinigami!"

"Because we were both born in Soul Society and not Vandenreich! Cang... my Uncle Cang who you loath so much managed to bring me back but not Nii-sama. Papa intervened then hid him from us. I've been looking for him for some time so don't you dare touch him. Why is it you like picking on the male family members I care most about!"

"Oh... now this comes around to the whole issue between Cang and me?"

"You're jealous of his ability."

"No. I'm jealous of the fact you're always talking about him. I've asked you to marry me how many times now."

Toshiro's foot suddenly kicked out and Bazz-B clutched at his groin area. "Why you little..."

"Don't touch Nii-sama." The girl narrowed her eyes. "I've told you before, you're the last person I would consider a proper mate."

The next thing Toshiro knew she was pulling something around his shoulders and then pulling him out of his room.