Discovering the power of Earth.

Moving to LA

I feel dizzy, I try to stand up, but I can't. I feel my body burning up as a tear rolls down my face and drips into the cold pavement. My head is killing me from the pain, I try to scream but nothing comes out of my mouth, I try to move but my body doesn't respond. I hear distorted voices, screams and gunshots from the people around me, everything turns into a blurry. I try to remember how I ended up here, and everything slowly comes back to me. I remember running as fast as I could to get away from the destruction and violence that was surrounding me, I stopped to start breathing again then it happened, the biggest explosion I had ever seen, that's how I've ended up here, then I touch the back of my head to see my hand covered in blood, 'what will my mum feel when she starts calling out for me and doesn't get a response?' I think and fear consumes my entire body 'Is she even alive?' I ask myself 'is my sister ok?' 'did they make it?' 'did they end up like me?' more tears roll down my cheeks, my entire life flashes in front of my eyes, the most important memories, the wild flowers in front of my house, my adventures with my best friends, my sister and I swimming in a river, and to this point I still don't know the meaning of my life. I'm afraid, afraid that no one will remember me, afraid to die alone, afraid to loose everyone, everything starts turning black. I wake up immediately, gasping for air and breathing very fast. 

I see people looking at me weirdly, my breathing rate is normal again, it was just a nightmare but  it felt so real. It has happened to me before, I have these nightmares that keep haunting me in which I see human civilisation falling apart in horrible ways. I am trapped in my mind, if I'm even able to scream, no one ever hears me so it's useless. I don't even know what these nightmares mean, but I know they're dangerous, my sister tells me that I say weird things while I'm asleep and once she even saw me sleepwalking. So I have to take medication to control this, even though they have unpredictable side effects, medication has helped me a lot so now I just have this nightmares once or twice a month.

I slowly reach for my plane seat and start watching or should I say rewatching Harry Potter, I had finished reading all the books about a year ago, and even though the books are better than the movies, I still like to watch them to remember parts of the story that I had forgotten. 3 hours, 3 hours until we get to LA, or should I say my new home, I'm excited to finally be back, USA has always felt like home, and finally it is. My mom had to move to LA because of her job and I couldn't be happier, even though I missed my best friends from Spain, I'd go back to Spain this summer but the memories of our crazy adventures kept coming back to me, Daniela's green eyes filled up with excitement as we escaped from her Asturias's house window to take a cat with us back inside, exploring different paths in the mountains, Marta's face in a scary roller coaster, our long conversations, our basketball games, skateboarding, I'm missing them already I will call them once I arrive.