The Weight { A Cameron Dallas Fanfiction }

{ 18 } UNEXPLAINED

Been 3 months since I left Cam,since he left me.I remember the night when Nash came for me,take me to his hotel.LOX,Jacob,and Shawn were there too,they cheering me up.Today i wake up with my red eyes,nightmare just like usual.I keep myself on my bed,im in LA living my life with the internship.Its 10 am and its Sunday.Havent been so busy since couple weeks ago so i decided to be back to my twitter and changed the username into @BellaMaiden im no longer Cameron Dallas account but im still Cam girl,deep in me i still wish that im still a Cam's girl,but its over.Im tired of being judge by alot of people,more drama and drama each day.The guys are still on tour,but Jacob and Shawn still have their time to talk to me just like they used to be.

Thought of the things that left unsaid keep haunting me,everything seem to be unexplained untill now,i know nothing and clueless.Cam called but i just have not enough power to hear things,im too broke.I miss Cam,being in his hug cuddling was the best.Every night I stalk the meet and greet photos and stage videos,just to keep myself cheered up.I will always love Cam but being with him was a very beautiful disaster.

I wipe my tears and exhale the pain,get myself together and get out of the bed.Standing on my pink piglet bedroom shoes while stretching myself,i take my rubber and tie my hair up.I open the curtain and say hello to the sky.

Walking straight to the closet where I put all of my cloths and stuffs.I open it and see my stuffs,arranged neatly.I pick my burgundy knit sweater and my black legging to the bathroom with me and have a hot bath cause its December! I set myself in the tub with the aroma teraphy smells also with my relaxing playlist.I close my eyes and enjoy the bath.

As I have my feet back on the ground,i dry myself and brush my teeth.Done with my outfit I dry and curl my hair,put on little make up.Putting my used cloths into the basket and I walk out the room having my breakfast in the kitchen,all by myself with my phone in my hand sometimes,talking to social media friends on Twitter tweeting and replying stuffs,commenting liking instagram photo,replying to snapchat and kik.

@TropicalDallas : @BellaMaiden how are you queen? been a long time since everything,hope you doing fine :)

@Anonespinossa : @BellaMaiden Can you do a meet up?? we missed you!!

@Grierftmendes : @BellaMaiden @CameronDallas i miss you two....

@BellaMaiden : @TropicalDallas hey im good sweetie!! how are you? hope you doing fine too there <3xx

@BellaMaiden : @Anonespinossa Meet up?? im free today!! ;);)

@BellaMaiden : @Grierftmendes hey <3 i miss you one

I see a notification from snapchat telling that Cam just sent me a snap,my heart beats fast fast fast extremely fast.I click on the photo i thought it was going to be a private chat but it was a selfie of Alexis with sleeping Cam underneath his white blanket.......not long after i open the message,the photo is now on snapchat story.Im sick of it.I lock my phone and leave it on the table as i put my dishes.I take my brown leather tote bag and put in my phone,wear my long cream knit socks with my highleg black boots.Im ready to go,as i walk out of my apartment with my black leather jacket hanged on my left lower arm.I walk to the elevator rushly wear my jacket and take out my phone.Im going to the mall for some christmas decorations also winter outfits,and grocery shopping.

Walking down the windy yet cold street all by myself,kinda awkward.I miss my hand held by him or my waist surrounded by his hand,when we spent time together,all these thoughts keep haunting me.I turn my face down,holding back my tears but accidently i bump into someone,a guy.

Bella : oh im sorry im so sorry,i di-

Guy : nah its fine,are you okay?

Bella : no im sorry,yah sure im okay.