WHERE IT ALL BEGAN....

chapter four

It's been a week since the whole text slip up. I had no intentions on trying to have any contact with Sean.  I was trying to avoid him as much as possible, but it was so hard when all I could do is think about him. The way he held me when we danced, his smile, his laugh, and him. Im can't believe that I am really going through this right now. For as long as I been knowing Sean, I've never seen him in that type of way. But it was something about that night that caused me to feel different. God knows I love Antonio with all my heart, but could it be that I was beginning to feel for another man. I wish I could just talk to Sean, but I'm unsure of how things would go and what he would say. Im not even sure of how i would react to him if i were to see him. But this was something I wasnt in the mood to think about at the moment, I figured I would just deal with it when the time comes. Since I was already out and about, I decided I would do a little shopping to take my mind off things. I pulled up to Intermix and it was crowded with paparazzi and people. I parked right outside the door so that I could just run right in. When I got in the store I did a lot of looking around, when I found something I liked I went to try it on in the dressing room. After about the 4th outfit I tried on, I was leaving out the dressing room when I heard somebody shouting my name. I turned around to see who it was and too my luck it was SEAN. He also had a guy with him. It must have been his friend or something. Immediately my heart started racing. I was for sure I was going to pass out when I saw him walking my way.(Sean) "Well what's up stranger" he said trying to hug me. 

(Bey) standing with her hands in her pocket "Hey" I said, trying to remain calm. 

I was so nervous, I didn't even know what to say. The fact that he was seeming like everything was all good made me want to freak out even more. He must of sensed something was wrong with me, when I didn't hug him back.

(Sean) "Whats up with you, you seem all tense?" 

(Bey) "Oh no, I'm fine. I just had a long day thats all." I said lying.

(Kanye) walking up "Hello, Im Kanye, Im Jay's friend and you are..." extending out his hand.

(Bey) "Hi, im Beyonce" she said shaking his hand.

(Kanye) "Nice to meet you."

(Bey) ''you too"

(Sean) looking at Ye "Uhm, Beyonce do mind if I talk to you outside for a min"

(Bey's thoughts) Oh god. What is he going to say? What's going to happen from here? What if he brings up the text, How am I going to react. I just felt so uncomfortable.

(Bey) hesitant to answer "yea, we can go outside"

When we got outside, my hands and knees started shaking. I was so nervous, i thought i was going to be sick. The second he opened his mouth, I felt my heart start pounding against my chest.

(Sean) "I know you lied to me earlier, when I asked you were you okay."

(Bey) Having a dumb look on her face "Lying?? What would make you think that?"

(Sean) "Well first off, when I called your name, you turned around and looked at me as if i were a ghost. Then when I came to hug you, you just stood there, then third---"

(Bey) "Okay, Okay, Okay....yes something is bothering me."I interrupted

(Sean) "So talk to me, Whats up? Tell me whats on your mind."

(Bey) Takes a deep breathe "The other night when you texted me, you know the night of my party..?"

(Sean) nodding his head "uhm-hmm"

(Bey) "Well the text that I had sent to you, it wasn't meant for you, well not like that, I mean I didn't mean to send it, I mean I do like you, wait not like you, like you but..." I was so nervous I was talking so fast and stumbling over my words, Im not even sure if Sean was comprehending.