WHERE IT ALL BEGAN....

chapter eight

When I got home that night of the listening party, Tony wasn't there. Although i was hoping he would be gone, just to avoid arguing, I still wanted to let him know my decision for taking some time apart. So i left him a note.

(Note to Tony)

Tony,I know things between us lately have been a bit crazy and I'm not even sure where to begin. I have a lot I'm dealing with right now and i feel it's best that we take some time apart. Im not breaking up with you, I'm just taking some time to myself to get my head on straight. I do still love you and I always will. Im also postponing the wedding until things are sorted out. Don't bother trying to contact me or find me because you want have any luck. I'll give you a call soon.                                                                                                  -Bey

As for Solo i told her i was going on a business trip and that she would have to stay with Michelle until I got back. I know she was going to be mad about staying with Michelle, but Kelly and Angie were still gone and i couldn't let her know what was going on between Tony and I, nor Michelle. I would of sent her to my mom's but I'm still not speaking with her and she would have been asking a lot of questions. I couldn't let anyone know about my break from Tony, will not until i was for sure of how things would turn out between us. I been staying at Kelly's house since then. It's been about 3 days. It was easier because i already had the keys to her place and I didn't want to stay at a hotel and deal with people and the press. Kelly was still away, but she was coming home today. I was excited because i missed my girl and i would finally have someone to talk to and help me through my situation. On top of all the other things i've been dealing with, the fact that my period hasn't came yet has caused me to become more stressed. I was only a day late, but I wasn't really tripping on it. I figured my body was just going through changes. But my period is pretty accurate and on time, so by it not coming i became worried. My appetite has even picked up more and I had gained some weight. I was trying to calculate the last couple of times i have had sex which was the morning of my birthday which was about a month ago and then when Tony came home, which was almost 2 weeks after that. I was trying not to think about things as much because i know how i can get. I was in the kitchen cooking me something to eat, knowing I'm not the best cook. I could have ordered up something but i couldn't think of anything that i would have a taste for, that i could have ordered. In the midst of me cooking, Kelly came home and i couldn't have been more happier. I was standing at the stove when she walked in, I heard her calling out my name so i called for her to come in the kitchen.

(Kelly) "OH GOD, your cooking?....Shall i call the fire department now or later?'' she joked

coming into the kitchen.

(Bey) "Well Hi too you too." 

(Kelly) still laughing "Aw I'm sorry pookie.......How ya been, I missed you!" she said hugging me.

(Bey) stirring the food in the pan "Ugh don't even ask, but i missed you too. How was your flight?"

 (Kelly) "It was cool, i slept most of the way" looking at my food, making a weird face "Uhm Bey......what is that?" she asked pointing at my food.

(Bey) "Well i was trying to make fried pickles with some cheese fries."

(Kelly) "What type of combination is that?"

(Bey) "I don't know, i never tried it. It was just something i had a taste for."

(Kelly) "Only pregnant people eat shit like that."she joked.

(Bey) "Why you joking, i just might actually be pregnant." by this time i became serious.

(Kelly) a little shocked "Are you for real?"