Regrets | Brannie

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annie;

I convinced my parents to let me go out, I said i needed some fresh air and i'd be walking in a public place where if I died, someone would call an ambulance.
I walked to a place i'm not very fond of, especially after christmas. Many things have happened there, i used to love it when i was a kid. It was a fun place to go. Now i've avoided it at all costs, it's where brennan almost jumped.
I was going back to the bridge.
And just as i had imagined, he was there. He was just standing there, slouched against the railing, staring endlessly at the water. I wondered what was going on in that mind of his. That beautiful mind. But, that's also the mine that manipulated me. The mind that almost killed me.
"Brennan?" His whole body stiffened as he glanced towards me.
"Annie," I felt his voice crack, it was a something new. Something so filled with dread. Dread that he had been planning, almost, like he knew he'd have to say my name again. And he knew it'd break him.
"When did you wake up?" One foot slowly fell in front of the other, I wanted to run towards him and slap the shit out of him. I wanted to hug him and never let go. I wanted him to know how much it hurts to do this, physically and emotionally.
"A few hours ago,"
"Why are you here? Shouldn't you be at home resting?"
"what are you, my doctor?" He laughed lightly, his glance shifting to the concrete.
"I wanted to find you and saw thank you," Now he was very confused.
"I don't know if you remember correctly, but i almost killed you annie." I nodded, pulling the letter out of my back pocket.
"Whatever you did over that week katie said you were gone must of completely changed you, because i know you, and i know you're afraid of your emotions. It took guts to admit you're a selfish prick, and i appreciate that."
"I don't know if that was a compliment, but thanks?" We laughed lightly again, our eyesight finally lining up. His eyes were sad, sad and emotionless at the same time. What happened to him.
"Well, i came here to see if we could find a way to be friends. As much as we love each other, I don't know if you've noticed, but i don't think it's the best idea right now," He nodded, shifting on his feet.
"and you're also graduating in less than a month, i just think it's the best idea if we have some space to get life worked out-" He took a few steps towards me and gently kissed my lips. I returned the favor, keeping it light. He pulled away.
"I had to, one last time," I nodded.
"Well, I should get going, i'll see you in school?"
"Of course," We turned our backs, and we walked away.
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