Hey I miss Omar so fucking much and I'm so sad he turned out to be a dick to Simon. I just!!!! Miss my friend!!!!!!!!! Fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like Simon has made me cut out a lot of people...he's been good to me but idk. I feel like he's isolating me and I can only be friends with him and his friends. Idk. I don't like it.
Like I can't even talk about Alejandra without Simon getting weird and sad .
I just miss when it was me, Simon, Omar, and Ale as a Group like it made me so happy and content and idk.
I love Simon with all my heart. He's my best friend. I'm just. Not enough for him (which he makes clear) but like . He HAS to be enough for me? Idk if this makes any sense. I'm just very lonely and doubting that this friendship is good for me which is an awful feeling. My mom and Milly keep telling me that they don't think it's a good idea for me to room with Simon next year. Idk. Maybe I'll kill myself before then, who knows.
