In case you don't know what a songfic is, its a fanfic based off a song. This songfic is based on Ed Sheeran's song Happier.
I was walking through the town square, heading to my hut after a long day of chiefing. It had been a long day of listening to people's problems, coming up with solutions, planning with my general, Eret, Gobber and my mom, and racing all over Berk.
That's when I saw her. Astrid. Except she wasn't alone. She was with her new boyfriend. He had his arm wrapped around her shoulder and she held his hand. It had been a month since we broke up and she already looked happier with him.
I stopped and watched them walk. They were heading to the Meade Hall. Probably to have some drinks with his friends. I still hadn't learned the guy's name nor do I intend to.
I sighed, turning in the direction of my hut again. Then I heard her laugh. Oh, how I missed her laugh. It was like music to my ears. I turned around once again. Both their smiles were so much bigger than ours ever were.
Yeah, she was definitely happier.
I walked as fast as I could to my hut. I needed to get away from them. I hurt too much to see them together.
I still remember the night we broke up.
*Flashback*
"Astrid Haley Hofferson, will you marry me?" Hiccup asked, down on one knee, holding both of Astrid's hands.
Astrid stood there, thinking. Her smile turned to a frown. "No," she said slowly.
Hiccup stood up, "What?"
"I said no Hiccup; I won't marry you. Not right now," Astrid let go Hiccup's hands.
"Wh- Why?" Hiccup asked, scared of the answer.
"Because. The job of a chief's wife is to give an heir from the throne. I will not have my life reduced to that. I just turned 21 last month for Thor's sake!" Astrid's voice began to rise.
"Are you serious right now?!" Hiccup screamed. "You won't marry me because you don't want to give me children?! You and I talked about having a family together for Odin's sake and now you're telling me you changed your mind?!"
"Well excuse me if I don't want to be pressured into having children! It's my body Hiccup!" Astrid retorted.
"You don't have to have a baby now!" Hiccup yelled, gesturing to his front door from which you could see the village.
"I don't want to have a baby ever if I'm being pressured into it!" Astrid yelled back. She pushed her arms downwards, hands curled into fists.
"Berk needs an heir, Astrid! You're being selfish right now!" Hiccup yelled.
Astrid scoffed, "I'm being selfish?! I'm not the one trying to force you into a marriage where your only role is to have a kid!"
"I am not forcing you into a marriage!" Hiccup defended.
"You know what? This," she pointed back and forth from Hiccup to herself, "isn't working for me. We're done." Astrid grabbed her coat from the table and stormed out of what once was their house.
*End of Flashback*
I reached the front door of my hut. I hesitated before opening it. Her memory was still lingering in my mind. I finally opened the door and went to grab a bottle before sitting in my chair.
Fishlegs keeps telling me I'll get over her and that I'll feel the same way she does, but I'm not and I don't know if I ever will.
And I always smile in public, no matter how much it kills me. I have to be a good chief and a good chief can't be as weak as I feel.
I really hurt her. I'm such an idiot. I miss her. Gods why do I still love her?! I'm trying not to take it personal since she's moving on with someone else, but it's hard to see her so happy and know I'm not the reason.
I sat in my chair, nursing the empty bottle in my hand. Everything was reminding me of her. The chair she always sat in at every meal, the blanket she picked out at the Northern Markets, even the cup she always used. All of it brought back memories of when she was mine.
Gods I was so much happier with her in my life. It has forever changed now that she is gone. And I don't know what to do. But if he ever hurts her, I'll be waiting for her.
