Chances.

Chapter Thirty

Jackie POV

I guess Shawn saw me wake up and set me down gently. "You could've waken me up, Mendes!" I playfuly punched his arm "It's not like it's easy to carry me." I could see the anger rush to his face "Are you kidding me?" He stopped and I immediately followed, getting thrown over his shoulder by one arm. I started kicking and then felt the whole airport's eyes on us two, so Shawn set me down and kissed my forehead. "Don't test me." He winked. I rolled my eyes and grabbed his hand.

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When we got to the hotel we made room arrangements pretty quick. I was rooming with Shawn and Sebastian. Seb was our special guest for the event, which we had an extra day before. I made my way into the room and the boys were all in there. "JACKIE!" Seb stood up "SEBASTIAN!!" We ran into a hug. When the hug was released I walked over and sat on Shawn and I's bed across from Seb's. Shawn grabbed my hand and tensed up a little, really? I looked over and squinted my eyes in frustration. When I looked back over at Sebastian he was confused "So you two..?" I held up my hand which was attached to his and nodded. "I always knew it." He wasn't lying. When he used to go to Magcon with us he would always say me and Shawn would be together, it always made Hayed mad. I laughed a little after I remembered "Why did you think that anyways?" Shawn finally spoke up. Sebastian moved his vision to Shawn "Well, you two were always the 'best friends'. You always spent time together and never got uncomfortable with each other. You never fought or even argued." I smiled "I remember this one time.." he continued. I looked up and cocked my head. "So you and Hayes were arguing and you decided that it would be an okay idea to try and make him jealous. So you and Shawn made out in front of him. He was pissed, even tried to fight Shawn." The memories flooded back. All of them, not just that. The worst one- Nash. I cheated on shawn not too long ago. It was serious cheating, too. I snapped back to my surroundings and Shawn and Sebastian were laughing and talking. I felt like I was going to throw up. I got up "I'm gonna go see Megan." I smiled and kissed Shawn. I ran across the hall and started banging on her door. No one answered. "Fuck." I felt my eyes water. I pulled out my room list from my back pocket and ran to Taylor's. I pounded on the door and Tay answered. Before he said a word he grabbed my arm and pulled me into the room and shut the door. "Sit down." His roommates weren't there so I decided to just sit on a bed. "I'm a terrible girlfriend. I don't deserve Shawn. He doesn't deserve this." That's when I broke out into tears. Tay came running over to me and grabbed my head pulling me into his chest. I felt his hand rub my back and started calming down. He let go and looked me in the eyes. "What did he do? Do I need to beat ass?" Taylor was always perceived to be the bad one, but I saw him as a big teddy bear. "No no no, it's me. It was a while ago I didn't mean to. I-I I'm so-" "Calm down. You can tell me. What happened?" "I- I cheated on Shawn with Nash." His eyes flew open and his mouth moved, but no words came out. I expected that. "Just tell Shawn that you kissed Nash, it's not too big of a deal." "It wasn't just a kiss." I trailed off "Please, no. Don't tell me-" Taylor looked into my eyes, worried. I took in a sharp breath and bit my lip. We both went speechless. I felt so stupid, so naive. I felt my eyes water up and Taylor put his arms out and motioned for me to lean into them. I lunged for them and cried into his sweatshirt. "You know you have to tell him." "I can't." "Jackie-" "No Taylor. There's no way. Never. He can never EVER find out." I ran out of the room. Straitening myself up I unlocked my door and walked in, everyone left. I layed down and thought. I need to talk to Nash. I walked across the hall. I was about to knock on the door when the door opened and Shawn walked out. "Hey babe!" He kissed me and grabbed my ass. I kissed back as a tear ran from my eye. Shawn pulled back and I rubbed the tear away as quick as I could. He bit his lip, not now. I smiled before looking down. His face dropped "What's wrong?" He mad a sad face and rocked me back and forth. I shook my head "Just tired." He kissed my forehead "Go lay down. The boys and I are catching up for a while. I'll be in though." I hugged him as tight as I could and walked away. We were both so confused.