A knife held precisely between two elegant fingers
It was positioned over a wrist so small it was scary
An angel walks in and automatically says I love you
Looking down at her wrist she begins to plead please don't
The confused little angel smiles and drags the knife deep across her wrist
Everyone she loves wait day by night day by night until she finally awakens
She opens those huge green orbs and stares at those around her who
Cry with joy at her waking up they crowd her bed
Opening her mouth she says
I wonder will everyone always be so cruel
they say we learn form our mistakes, but do we really
Or do we just learn to cope with the guilt and sorrow of everyday lives
And unlike the rest of our race are the poeple like me sincere
Are we the ones that notice all the great injustices
Or are we the cowards
I wonder when life will finally be pretty, and I won't be a shame to the people I love so dearly
Who have always been there even when they may have been on the wrong side
I wonder when will things change
or when the skies will actually be blue
Will everyone never know the differences of life as we know it.
I wonder, I wonder alot about such things
For days no one answered her question and she continued to get better, but she didn't want to if there wasn't hope for the world a reason for living
So one day when no one was looking she grabbeda syringe filled it with air, and then pushed that air into her IV
she died as soon as the air reached her heart
What she didn't know was that day a boy was coming into her room
he was there to tell her it gets better, and that he had her answers
he stared at her lifeless figure for a while before looked down at his arm and shook his head
He knew, because he had been there not that long ago
He knew what it felt like to suffer without answers
So he told her corpse everything she wanted to know and more
He told her his story and the ones of others he had saved
Because all though he wasn't much, and never actually done much inhis life he was an angel despite what the marks on his arms said and what others had said about him
And even though he couldn't save everyone he tried to save her soul from going to hell by giving her knowledge of Heaven and its magnificence
So now when he saves someone he just says two words:
I wonder
Not because he felt sorry or because he didn't know, but because
those two words are what led to her damnation
So I wonder maybe if he had been a little faster
Oh I wonder
