THE DIARY | Mingi FF

Note No11

Blue
The colour of trust.
The shade of sea and sky.
Inspires feelings of confidence, integrity and responsibility.

Too much blue can create feelings of melancholy, negativity, sadness, self-righteousness, and self-centeredness.

I've found all my notes. It's been like 2 moths since my first therapy session and I'm already remembering everything. Good and bad. Small things I forgot along the way and big life decisions. Jongho once told me to dye my hair blue once in a while so people can recognise me in case something happens. I told him he has to remind me cause I might not be able to.

This is probably my last note ever. Now I know the truth thanks to Dr. Nayeon. My dad used to rape me. That's how everything started. My mind kept shoving down these memories but as it kept happening, I started forgetting other things. I remember the first time I saw Mia at the party. But I wasn't myself then. And cause if that, all led to that night Jongho came to my house. I remember the voices outside the room and the gunshot. Minutes later the police came in and found me on the floor crying. I thought someone had died but thankfully it was a blank shot from one of the guys in the living room. Jongho had called the police in advance and when they found my dad drunk, the house full with drugs and me locked in my room they arrested him. Jongho helped me out of the house and then the doctors took over. Ever since I live with Jongho and his family. I visit the hospital often and I'm getting better. Jongho doesn't know I remember everything, yet. I told Mia when she visited me once and I told her to keep a secret for now. I found the note he wrote me when I went to the hospital after Mia's mom confronted me unfairly. I'm thankful for him cause he didn't put his feelings over mine. He never once tried to remind me what's really happening. I remember the promise I gave him when my mind was clear one time we were at the park.

"I'll always be reminded of you, of us. This is our park. I'll always remember my way home from here cause of you and me right here."

So now it's my time to go back to him. It's time for me to live the life I deserve with the man that I love.