Morning Light, Life Is Just A Game

Chapter 4

Remington's POV

Before I get into the chapter I just want to say I'm so sorry that I haven't been uploading this because I know people have been reading it. I just don't know what to do with it if you want me to be honest and I feel maybe its not to everyone's taste. Please leave comments if you wish I'm always looking for feedback. 

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All I could hear was a glass smash as I fell onto the ground and onto the hard wooden bedroom floor.
I watched as Val stood above me but when I tried to move or even speak nothing happened. I began to feel numb and like my body wasn't attached to my mind.

I could feel my breathing speed up all I wanted was to scream, what was going on? Why couldn't I move? 

I looked at Val as she sat on my hips and started to run her fingers up and down my chest. She looked at me dead in the eyes and smiled whilst moving her cold hands under my shirt.

I wanted to shout for her to stop but nothing came out and she just smiled more at me.

"I told you one day I would be your first Remi, and now I have my chance" she said slipping her hands down my body placing them onto my jeans button.

My heart shattered as she spoke as my mind finally clicked what was going on, she was going to get what she wanted if I agreed or not.

I could feel the tears running down my face as I felt her pull down my skinny jeans and started to rub me through my boxers. I tried to scream again but once again nothing happened and all I could feel was her hands on my numb body.

She slowly started to strip taking of her shorts and top still sitting on me and all I wanted was to look away. I wanted to run, I wanted my big brother.
I thought we were friends and now I'm lying on her bedroom floor with my mind running wild , my heart was beating so fast I felt like I was going to pass out or be sick.

She leaned down and started to kiss my neck and as much as I tried to pull away or push her off my body wouldn't move.
Soon enough I felt my boxers getting pulled down and her whisper something in my ear before what I was just hoping was a bad dream started to happen and all I was doing was begging for myself to wake up back  home cuddling Emerson on the small sofa we both can't fit on but we try anyway.

She gripped onto my hips, digging her nails into them surely drawing blood as she moved her body up and down making the most horrible moaning noises which soon filled the room. I just lay there silent watching as she touched me all over, making love bites all over my chest and neck. 

I could feel my heart was still racing and the sick feeling was getting worse the more she grinded her hips on me. I could feel my eyes start to roll into the back of my head, I can't pass out she will do much worse things to me if I pass out. 

I tried my hardest to stay awake and move my legs to try kick her off but whatever she gave me was strong and was finally kicking in full effect because I could my breathing going shallow as my eye lids got heavy and soon everything went black. 

*Time Skip* 

I rolled over onto my side and groaned in pain. My eyes slowly opened and when my sight finally came around I noticed the room I was in was pure black. Soon all the memories came flooding back as I noticed I was still on the cold wooden floor of Val's bedroom. 

I grabbed onto her bed, helping myself get back onto my feet as my knees buckled underneath me. I feel back onto my knees and yelped in pain. I looked around and noticed the door was closed over with my shoes still beside it for when I first arrived, which was probably hours ago now. 

I made another attempt to stand back onto my feet, and slowly made my way towards the door.  Walking past the mirror on the wall on my way to the door I stopped and looked at myself. I looked a mess, love bites all down my neck which were bright purple and my zip of my jeans broken. I had makeup all down my face and my eyes looked like I was on some sort of acid because they wouldn't keep focus on one place. 

I placed my hand on the door handle and twisted it and to my surprise the door was open. I made my way to the front door noticing all the lights in the house were off meaning she must have went out and just left me when she was finished. 

As soon as I got to the front door I noticed a note tapped onto the door. 

"Morning sunshine, I hope you don't go running to your brothers now. I don't want to have to hurt you my angel" 

My stomach turned as I read the message, she just fucked my pass out body and she says she can do worse to me. Thoughts of her hurting Sebastain and Emerson rushed into my head and fear started to pump through my veins, I can't let her hurt them they are all I have. 

I practically ran out the front door leaving it wide open behind me and ran out the apartment building. I ran down the street, rain pouring but I didn't care. 

I soon found myself in a small local park I would take Emerson to play when he was upset and Sebastain was working. I sat on one of the swings, the park being empty because of how bad the weather was and took a shaky breath. 

All of a sudden I felt my phone buzz in my back pocket, I pulled it out and saw Sebastain's name on the screen. I clicked the answer button my hands shaking. 

"Remington! where the fuck are you, you can't keep playing these sick games on me, I thought you were dead" he screamed down the phone. 

"I'm...I'm" I stuttered, I couldn't form words so much running around in my mind to the point I couldn't help but burst into tears. 

"Remington talk to me, are you hurt? calm down why are you crying?" he kept asking so many questions, questions I couldn't answer because I didn't want him getting hurt.  

I hung up the phone and collapsed off the swing bringing my knees to my chest.  My breathing heavy as all I could do was cry harder and harder as memories rushed into my head. Then a memory hit me.....she didn't use protection and I don't know if she's on the pill. She can't become pregnant with my baby she can't. I'm not ready to be a dad and I didn't even want a kid.

I started to rip my old cuts open that were on my thighs by scratching them violently through my jeans till the point my legs burned. I started to pull on my hair and scream just wanting to die right this second, for my heart to stop and for me to just drop dead so all the pain would go away. 

I crawled into a ball not wanting to move, seeing my phone light up beside me and Sebastain's name pop up but I ignored it. All I did was cry and gag feeling more and more sick the louder my thoughts got.