Memories (A.C.E Junhee)

chapter 3: The nightmare

Sitting in class. working on a new sewing techinque. 

Focused on my work.... 

''Hey Yiseul'' Starts Donghun. 

''Yeah?'' i asked while working. 

''Did something happen again? After the last meeting we went to?'' he asked. 

Ahh... Jun must be acting up again. 

''Yeah.. I rejected him twice..'' i said. 

''I see... You know it has been really awkward with him.. Since i am friends with you. '' 

I stopped working and looked at Donghun. ''I am really sorry.. It's not like i wanted to..'' 

He smiled to comfort me. ''No it's fine. You can't help it anyways. Fate is playing a stupid joke on you once again. Besides he really looked very very down this time..'' 

''I guess so.. It's better this way. It's even better if he just ignores me. I really don't get it why he likes me so much..'' i said. 

''I know. I thought he would give after the first time you rejected him. Well stopped him before he would do anything else.'' 

Oh well.. He will leave me alone for sure now this time. Man.. I never regret meeting/knowing someone so much in life than Junhee. 

''It doesn't matter anymore. As long he doesn't remember me. Then it's fine. I will be able to go through Uni easily..''  

''But...'' 

Hmm? what does he wanna say? 

''What if.. He is really a changed person. He is not the same person who dumped and bullied you horribly anymore'' 

I sighed deeply. 

''That is only what i really wanna believe but i shouldn't expect that. I can't take that risk. I have been enduring it for so many years.. I wouldn't be able to go through it again.'' My eyes start to get a little bit wet. 

It still hits me even though i tried so hard on forgetting. It all just keep giving me flashbacks.. 

Now i have seen Jun again.

 ''I am sorry for pushing it.. It's just i really can't see you with somebody else than Jun'' he said. 

''I-it's okay.. It's really funny of you saying that. If you only could see what he has done to me.. But i am not angry with you saying that. You are just being honest'' 

He just nodded. 

''Oh well it's over. Don't worry too much about me.'' I smiled. 

He slightly smiles back at me. Must be feeling sorry for me. Finding me pitful. 

Urghh.. It's only has been 1 week in college and all my problems are about Jun... 

Well that is kinda expected if i ever met him again which i never expected to happen this way. 

It just scares me.. That he could remember me at any point.. What would i do if that happened? 

I would be.. I have no idea what i would do. It already stresses me out thinking about it. 

Knowing what horror i just went through to get out from him.. 

Would he just hurt me all over again? Just like high school?

Urghh.. My brain is really not helping with trying to make me feel at ease. 

Overthinking really kills a person.