Memories (A.C.E Junhee)

Chapter 9: I ain't gonna be yours anymore.

I was thinking deeply in my own room. It was evening. So classes all have ended for today. At least for me. 

How am i gonna tell Jun that i am gonna be designing for somebody else? and he is gonna fail the year like that. 

I sighed deeply. Yiseul you shouldn't be so softhearted to him. It's not the first time and i shouldn't have been fooled the 2nd time. Like for real. 

I just need to be firm. My mind is just not thinking very clearly whenever Jun is involved. Even though i thought before i went to college. I would get my mind together. 

Well that was also before i knew Jun was also here... 

My memories, feelings with Jun are all mixing up. 

He ain't the same old Jun. Yet somehow i always keep being the same Yiseul. 

No idea how to get out of that... Urghh!! 

Great! Now i am overthinking. I guess. It's really time to close off the chapter with Jun for real. 

I can't do this. Let alone... if i wanna go out with Seyhoon like a real relationship. 

Then i can't leave this scar/wound open. For his and my sake. 

Yeah i need to be firm. To be honest with you. I am real tired of this too.. 

My mind can't make up. Even though i do often have dates with Seyhoon but it makes me really bad at times.. 

When we wanna go forward but gets awkward because we can't. Since i didn't told him my answer and Jun being in my mind. 

When he makes that sad face. I can't help but feel a bit pained too.. 

How many times did i wish or dream about Jun? That he would love me and cares for me. Even in his current state. 

Suddenly i get a message. I looked at my phone. It's Jun. 

He is inviting me to a bar. I guess i should just go. Maybe i can tell him at that moment too. 

So i started to change and headed out for the bar in the city. 

It was all dark. I saw the little lit up sign of the bar that it was down the stairs. 

Walking down the stairs while texting Jun i had arrived. 

I went inside and i looked around. It was a busy friday night. Guys were looking at me. 

Suddenly i saw Jun sitting at a table with other people. Waving his hand to me. So i could see where he was. 

Oh.. I thought he would be alone. Yet he is sitting with a meet up. What annoying. 

I walked up to the table. 

''Hi yiseul!'' he smiled. 

''Ah Hi Jun.'' 

The guys were all starstruck or whatever. They were acting too nice to me. ignoring the girls at the table. Which is kinda werid for me. 

Since those girls were total pretty and sexy. Seems like seniors too. 

They were not happy with me being here at their table. 

The guys made place for me to sit. 

Great... 

I was sitting next to Jun. He poured me a drink. 

''Go ahead.'' 

I took the glass. I took a very small sip.