Everyday I wake up and think....... I'm still living a lie.....My friends don't know the real me and my family always disapproves of me saying "Samantha don't do anything stupid or even draw the slightest bit of attention to yourself, they will need you one day...but you are not ready for them and they are not ready for you." So I wake in the morning and write in this journal then I go to school and get bullied by the meanest people in school, because I'm shy....not wanting to make a mistake. Sometimes I just want to use my black magic so bad!!! But I restrain myself you have no idea how much willpower this takes!!!! I do have 3 close friends, Ashley, Samantha, and Chloe..... But they'll never know the real me.......
