What Once Was

8

John's POV

Alex seemed to be getting along well with everyone, but was very flirtatious towards Angie and Eliza.

"Mon ami, what's wrong?" I turned away from Alex and faced Laf. "Nothing's wrong." He looked from me to Alex and his face lit up. "You have a, uh....what's the word... crush! You have a crush on him don't you!"

"N-no! I don't...he's just...I...okay maybe I like him. But it's not a big deal and he's probably straight." I left and went to talk to Peggy. "Alright everyone get in a circle. We're going to play paranoia. First of all does everyone know how to play?"

Everyone except Alex knrw how to. "Well, how you play is whoever goes first whispers a question to the person on their right. The person on the right must answer the question out loud, but no one else in the circle knows the question. Next someone flips a coin and if it's heads you say what the question was. If it's tails you take a shot." He nodded his head. "Okay then I'll start and we'll go counter-clockwise. So that would be me, Eliza, Angie, Alex, John, Herc, and then Laf." Peggy whispered her question and Eliza turned a light shade of pink. "Nathanael Greene." I flipped the coin and it landed on heads. "She asked me who I had a crush on." She then leaned up and whispered her question to Angie. "That's easy. John." I flipped the coin and it landed on tails. She took a shot and I resisted the urge to ask her what the question was. "I know John's dying so I'm gonna say what my question was. John, she asked me who my crush was. Laurence I-I like you a lot."

Fuck. 

"Umm...I thought you knew, Angie. I'm gay like super gay."

"I know. she actually asked me who my favorite was." Alex muttered a thank God under his breath. "What was that Alex?"

"I, uh, said thank God because, um, because I just met you guys and I feel like we've all made pretty good friends and -and I wouldn't want there to be any awkwardness. Also I think you kind of cute so, yeah." he mumbled the last part so I didn't hear it, but Peggy did and she had a huge smile on her face. "Angie ask your question." Following her sisters lead, she leaned up and whispered in Alex's ear.

"Bi, but I lean more towards guys." Heads "She asked me what my sexuality was, which was pretty obvious." I felt my heart lighten 'so I do have a chance' I thought, a small smile creeping on my face. I didn't even realize he was right next to me until I felt his body heat radiating off him. When he whispered in my ear it sent shivers down my spine. "Do you have a crush?" He backed away and I blushed at how innocent he looked.

"Uh, yeah. I do." He had a disappointed look on his face, but it quickly changed to a smile. I flipped the coin and got tails. I took a shot and turned to Herc, but he was talking Laf's ear off.

"Mon Cher, it's your turn." I leaned up to his ear and asked him who his crush was. "Lafayette." He blushed and I flipped the coin. Before I could even tell him he got tails, he took a huge swig of whiskey. "What the fuck! You're only supposed to take a shot!" Peggy yelled

"I DON'T PLAY BY YOUR RULES!"

"Just ask your  question." He turned beet red and answered "My love." by now Herc downed the whole bottle and was working on the second one. "Really! That's great!"

"Mon Cher, you're drunk."

"And you're sexy."

"Oh my-you've had enough. go sit in the corner." He pointed to the corner while Herc started to pout. "But I'm supposed to be the mom friend!" Contradicting what he said, he got up and went to sit in the corner, still sipping on his drink.

The rest of the night went by as someone might expect. We played twister, truth or dare, and spin the bottle until everyone decided to settle down and watch The Little Mermaid as requested by Herc. Alex, being a total light weight, was already drunk and curled up nest to me. Then it started to rain. Alex tightened his grip around me and I could feel him shaking. I asked him if he was okay.

"Yeah, just cold." He moved closer to me and buried his face deeper in my chest.

Alex's POV

"James! Where are you! Help!" I couldn't see anything around me . There was only the rain coming down and the icy cold water that surrounded me. 

"Alexander!" The familiar voice called. I looked around and could barely see James' head a few feet in front of me . As soon as he appeared, he was gone. I crawled onto a floating log and searched the waters. Nothing. I felt two arms pick me up. "Wait! No, I have to find James! I can't leave him here!"

I didn't drown. I couldn't seem to die.

John's POV

After a couple minutes of Alex holding to me like his life depended on it, he started shaking. I tried to ask him if he was okay, but he wouldn't respond. "Shit. Mon ami, take him to your room. I'll explain in a minute." I picked him up, but he was thrashing around and made it very difficult.

"No. I have to find him. I can't leave him here to drown. I should have died instead." I set him down and turned to go get Laf, but he wouldn't let go of me. Instead I curled up next to him under the covers. When Laf came in I asked him what was going on. "I've only hung out with Alex a couple times, but one time a storm came and he kinda had to talk to me. Apparently when he was 17 there was a really bad storm or something and it messed him up a lot." I nodded and he went back out to the living room, probably to explain what was happening.

About 15 minutes later Alex slowly started to go back to his normal self. When he fully prossesed what happened he wrapped his arms around me tightly, looked me straight in the eye and said "Please don't ever leave me."

"I won't leave you. I promise." After that we just laid there looking into each other's eyes. All I could think about was how cute he looked wrapped up in my arms and how beautiful his violet blue eyes were. Without thinking I leaned down and kissed him. This is going to sound cliche, but it honestly felt like a fairy tale. It felt like time stood still. That is until he pulled away and just sat there, eyes wide with shock, not saying anything. "Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. I'm so sorry. I probably just fucked up our entire friendship, just like I fuck everything else up in my life and I understand if you never want to talk to me again and I should just leave. It would probably-" Before I could finish my sentence he pressed his lips against mine.

"First of all you promised that you wouldn't leave me. Second if all this is your room so leaving would do absolutly nothing. So you are just going to lay here and cuddle with me. Okay?"

"Okay."

"John, can I ask you a question?"

"Yeah."

"What did you mean when you said you fuck everything up? I mean you don't have to tell me right now if you don't want to, but I want you to know that I'll alwaya be here to talk if you need."

"It was nothing. Just go to sleep and don't worry about it. I'll always be there for you anytime you need."

From the hallway we heard Peggy and Laf say "Awwww. I ship it." To which I replied with "Shut the fuck up or I'll slit your throats with a rusty knife and bury you somewhere no one will ever find you."

Laf ran away, but Peggy stayed a bit longer. "Don't do anything I wouldn't do."

"There's nothing you wouldn't do."

"Exactly." She ran off to chat with the rest of the group. Alex didn't seem to bothered by it, so I ignored it and pulled him closer. After a while we both fell asleep.

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Sorry for not updating for a while. Latly I just haven't had the motivation or insperation to write anything. Again sorry