Just A Princess

Chapter 30

Chapter 30

Waking up the next morning, I'm in bed alone. Lying there, thinking about things, I hear talking outside the door. "Have you seen her? How does her fat ass have two of our guys?" one of the voices says. "I don't know but I plan on making a move on Kozik. He's got to be tired of her fat ass by now." she says. I listen closely and the other girls says "Well, I'll help you with Koz if you help me with Juice. We'll convince them that we can take care of them better than that fat cow can." I hear this and feel the tears start to fall.

I wait until they are gone, get myself together and head out the back door and to my car. Heading home, I pack a bag and write a letter to the guys:

Guys,

I'm sorry to do it this way but I don't see any other way. I love the two of you so much but I know I'll never be enough for either of you. Please don't look for me. There are plenty of girls at the clubhouse that can take care of you better than I can. Girls that are prettier and skinnier than I am, that can be what I can't. I am so sorry, guys. I love you so much but you deserve someone that you can be proud to have on your arm and having a girlfriend that's a fat cow isn't something you can be proud of.

I love you both always, Maci

I walk out the door and head past the Leaving Charming sign. I drive for a couple of hours before my phone starts ringing. I see Juice and Koz both show up on the caller ID and I don't answer. I can't. I'm sitting in a hotel room just outside Modesto when my mom's face shows up. I don't answer her, or my dad, or even Happy or Tig. Lorca's number shows up and I finally answer. "Where the hell are you? Everyone's worried sick." He says. "Tell them not to. I'm safe. I don't know know where I'm going yet but I'm safe." I tell him. "What the fuck happened little bit?" he asks. "I can't be with them Lorca." I tell him. "What makes you think that? Of course you can." he says. "Really? When you have to sit and listen to fucking croweaters talk about how fat you are and how they're going to take them away from me. It's better to walk away instead of waiting on them to." I tell him. "Little girl you better listen to me and listen good. That's bull shit. Those stupid fuckers love you. Hell, part of Hap does too. But you need to get your head out of your ass and get home before your Old Men lose their fucking minds." he tells me and I start to sob. "Just tell them I'm sorry." I say before hanging up.

A few hours later, there's a knock on the door. I look through the peephole and see Juice and Koz standing there. I open the door and Juice pulls me to him and says "Fuck. Are you okay?" He asks as he pulls back to look at me and I don't meet his eyes. "You shouldn't be here." I tell them. "What? Why not?" Juice asks. "You need to go back to Charming." I tell them as I stand there and hold the door opened. "No. We're not leaving without you." Koz says. "Yes. You are. Guys, please don't make this harder than it has to be." I almost beg. "Do you want to be with us?" Koz asks. I shake my head no but don't look at them. "Look me in the eye and tell me you don't want to be with us." Koz tells me and I see tears falling from Juice's eyes and I break. I close the door and slide down the wall, sobbing. Koz sits on one side and Juice on the other and both have tears in their eyes. "I can't." I tell them. "What can't you do baby?" Juice asks as he takes my hand and laces our fingers. I look at our hands and pull away. "You guys deserve someone that you can be proud of having on your arm. You can't do that with me." I tell them. "Baby, what happened to make you think that?" Koz asks. "I heard a couple of croweaters talking about how they couldn't understand how you were with my fat ass and that they plan on taking you both from me so I walked away. You're going to leave me for them anyway." I tell them as I wrap my arms around myself sobbing. "Baby..." Koz says. "You both did it before. It should be no problem now. Just please go." I tell them. "We're not going anywhere. You're our Old Lady and we're staying here with you. In the morning, we'll head back to Charming and handle the croweaters but baby, we're not leaving you. We won't cheat on you again." Koz says. "We only want you baby. Only you." Juice says. They both stand and take my hand. Leading me to the bed, Koz turns down the covers and they strip down to their boxers and they pull me into the bed between them. Laying my head on Juice's shoulder with Koz snuggled behind me, they hold me close as I sob, praying that they don't leave me.