Just A Princess

Chapter 32

Chapter 32

Happy kisses my cheek and him and Sarah walk into the clubhouse. Koz and Juice are sitting next to me on the top of the table and Koz asks "What made you flip your switch?" I look at him and say "Uncle Tig just reminded me that I'm the fucking Princess and I needed to start acting like it." I tell them. "Welcome back Princess." Juice says before kissing my temple. We sit out there a little longer and I see those same whores tending to each other's wounds but still watching me. I shake my head and take another pull from the bottle. I feel Juice put his hand on one thigh while Koz puts his hand on my other thigh. I take yet another pull from the bottle. Taking a minute to calm down a little more, I say "I'm sorry guys. I'm not where I need to be but I'll get there." Koz squeezes my thigh and says "We're not going anywhere babe." I lean forward and get lost in my thoughts. They can't have a fat Old Lady. Guess I'll have to change that.

The next morning, we head home. I make breakfast once we are there and get the guys plates fixed. "You need to eat babe." Juice says. "I'm okay. I'll eat later." I tell him. "I move to the bedroom to get my things unpacked and Koz walks into the room. "Talk to me." he says. "I'm fine baby. Just not hungry." I tell him as I move to put my things away. He shakes his head and walks back to the kitchen. After they are done, I start cleaning the kitchen while they sit in the living room with beers. I get done with cleaning up and sit on the couch between them and just watch the movie they had one. Juice pulls me into him and I lean into him but that's about it. I don't snuggle in like I used to. He looks down at me and asks "You okay?" I just nod my head and say "I'm just still working through some shit. I'm okay." I tell him and snuggle into him.

That night, we head to bed and I head to the shower. I lock the door behind me so that they can't get in. I don't want them to see me. After my shower, I get into bed and feel Juice run his fingers under the hem of my shirt and I lace my fingers with his and pull them away from my stomach. Koz starts kissing down my neck and I lean up and over him and turn off the lights so they can't see me. I finally let them undress me and make love to me but once we reach our release, I say "I'm gonna get something to drink." before getting up and dressed quickly before heading to the kitchen for a drink of water. Standing at the counter, I am lost in my own thoughts. Juice stands behind me and has his hands on the counter on each side of me. "Talk to me baby. What's going on?" he asks softly. "I just need to get my head right." I tell him as I fight off the tears. "You have no clue how beautiful you are." he says and I start to sob. He tries to pull me closer and I pull away. Walking out to the back deck, I sit down and they both follow me out and sit beside me. "Baby, please tell us how to help you." Juice pleads. "Nothing you can do. I have to work this shit out myself." I tell him. "Baby, you don't want us to see you do you?" Koz asks and I shake my head no. "Baby, you are so fucking sexy. Why can't you see that?" Koz asks and I just shake my head as more tears fall. "I think I'm gonna sleep on the couch." I tell them as I get up and walk back into the house.

The next morning, I get up off the couch, still having not slept, and start breakfast. Once it's done, I go to the bedroom and wake the guys up, making sure I don't stay close long enough for one of them to touch me. I get their plates fixed and get my coffee and head to the back deck while they eat. Koz steps out "You need to eat. You didn't eat anything yesterday." he says. "I'm fine." I tell him. "No you ain't. You need to eat." he tells me and I just shake my head and he leaves me be.

The guys leave for work and I'm still sitting on the deck when the door opens. Thinking it's one of the guys I say "I'm fine." I hear his voice and my head snaps around. "Daddy?" I ask. I stand up and hug him. He pulls me closer and when I pull away, he asks "What's been going on? Koz called me and said you ain't been right." I look at my hands and say "I just can't get my head right. No matter how hard I try I can't get that shit out of my head. Daddy, they all strayed before. I just don't want to be around when they do it again. I packed my things and left and they came for me and made me come back." I tell him. "Do you want to be with them?" he asks. "I do but..." I start. "Do you want to be with them?" he asks again. "Yes." I say simply. "Then that's all you need to concentrate on. Don't think I don't know you haven't been eating and you're shying away from them. They ain't going anywhere. Neither is Happy. Shit. That little girl he's with, you honestly think that's gonna last? He still loves you too Sweetheart." he tells me. "I just don't know if I can do this anymore." I tell him, looking at my hands. He stands up and says "You listen to me. You're the fucking Princess. You rule this shit. Every man with a Reaper would drop anything to do what you need. I raised you better than this. You are beautiful, caring and smart as fuck. Get your head out of your ass and be with your men. They ain't going anywhere and if I find out your skipping meals again, I'll come back and it won't be for a talk next time. I will beat your ass just like I did when you were a kid. You hear me?" he says. "I hear you Daddy. Thank you." I tell him. Hugging him close I say "I just needed me Daddy."

That evening, the guys come in and I have dinner ready. I fix their plates and then fix mine and sit down to eat. "You feeling better Princess?" Juice asks. "Yeah. I think I just needed my Daddy to kick my ass back into place. I promise I'll get there okay. Just be patient with me." I tell them and they both nod before kissing me softly. That night when we go to bed, they start making love to me and I don't turn off the lights and I don't shy away. I will get back to where I need to be.