I Want You To Know

Growth

I've searched and searched for this woman I didn't even know all over the town. I don't know why I am having no luck. She must be here right? It could have been a dream for all I know. There are still plenty of places I've yet to go to, but I am losing hope. What if she's an awful person? Like just the worst.. now that I think about it she could suck. I want to get to know her though. I want to see her again. I need to get out of this bed. I looked over to see my phone going off, so I answered it. "Yo! Come outside and let your boy in!" The caller said. "All right be right there." I said as I got up and went to my door. "This isn't one of your off days Tai? Why are you here?" I said opening the door and peaking my head out. "I switched with someone which normally I wouldn't do unless I had to. So with that being said I had to now because Papa Walker said to help you look for college choices!" Tai said entering my house. "You know better than anyone I don't want to go even if my dad says I should. I feel as though it'll be a waste." I said going into the living room. "Okay okay true and you know that I'd agree 100% with you on that. Which I do, but I think it'd be good for you. Not because it's school, but because it's a good social experience for when you do start doing whatever it is you want to do." Tai explained sitting down on my couch and pointing towards the table next to the TV. "Plus your dad also said it's what your mother would have wanted and I agree with him." I looked over at the photo of my mom as he spoke and I just sat in my head for a bit. "Have you or Dad looked into one? If I go, I want to go to the cheapest one. To help dad out since you know it's only us. Hell even Hayley is living with Grandma in the city now so I feel as though I should just work instead of school." I said putting my head back on the couch. "Hayley is too young to have a job anyway PLUS be the good big brother and be that role model type thing. Although you could be a straight up bad brother and like I'd respect that, but not really." Tai said standing up and laughing. "Check this out though. I figured you'd say the cheaper the better SO I found the cheapest college I could find since college will always want your left arm and a couple grand." I grabbed the pamphlet and looked it over. "Well let me think it over for a night and I'll see what I decide on in the morning." I said getting up and putting the pamphlet in my back pocket. "That's all I ask. Now I gotta go, but I will send you more choices later on so just let me know. Deuces I'll talk to you later when I send you the goods." Tai said as he walked out the door. I walked over and closed the door.

The day went by fast and sure enough there was Tai sending me more options. I spent almost my entire night thinking and thinking about this going to school thing. I personally don't want to, but I also don't want to disappoint my mom and dad. Especially mom. If dad thinks she'd be proud of me if I went then I think I will, but these options Tai sent me are awful. I guess I'm sticking with the original plan then and going to the cheap college. I'm not excited about the whole being outside everyday part of this.