Best Friends Dad

Chapter 14: It's..

Firstly, thank you for waiting so long. I've been working a lot and having major writters block. 

but here is the next chapter! 

excuse all the grammer mistakes! 

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Chapter 14

Breathtaking.

That’s the only word I can think of that describes him.

“Nick?” My voice is barely there. I’m not sure he heard until he smiles. He motions for me to come closer. My legs are still frozen. How does he expect me to move?

Before I realize it, he’s right in front of me. I reach out and poke him to make sure he’s real and this isn’t a dream. Before he can stop me, I slap him.

“I guess I deserve that.”  He says quietly.

I let out a short laugh. “You deserve more than that. You left me. You just left with no warning or nothing. You left!” I didn’t realize I was yelling or exactly how pissed I was about everything until I was breathing heavily.

He grabs my hands and pulls me close. “I know. I’m so sorry. I will spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you. I’m sorry baby. I know sorry doesn’t mean anything right now but I promise I’ll do whatever it is to make it up to you. I’m never leaving you again.” he leans down and kisses me. “I am so sorry. I love you.”

I stare him. Honestly, what am I supposed to do? I can’t just believe him can i? But I want to. I want to jump into his arms and kiss him and tell him how much I love him. But he left me. When I needed him the most too.

“Why did you leave?” I have to ask why. I have to know. But I’m also scared to know the truth.

He lets out a soft sigh. “Let’s eat and I’ll tell you anything, okay?” He pulls my hand towards the table.

I sit down and take a sip of the water. I’m actually nervous. I don’t know why but I am.

“I had Chinese delivered. I hope that’s okay with you.” His voice sounds different, yet the same. I missed hearing it.

I blush and nod my head. “That’s fine.”

We start eating in silence. I’m not really sure what to say. Honestly, there’s so much I want to say but I don’t know how to put it into words. I can see that he wants to have causal talk but then again it’s probably not a good idea. I don’t want it seeming like everything is okay between us. Because quite frankly, it’s not. I’m not sure if it ever will be.

He clears his throat. “So, umm…” It’s never been this awkward between us.

“Just say it, Nick.” I’m tired of waiting for an explanation.

“Okay, the reason I left. I know it’s going to sound really stupid and probably immature, but the reason I left is because I got scared. I was scared of the way you made me feel. I’ve never felt like that, even with Mandi’s mom. You make me feel different but a good different. Things are so simple with you, just the way I like it. I don’t have to pretend to be something I’m not. I don’t have to act like I like something just to please you. We’re different but so alike. I also left because I couldn’t deal with the pain. I let you get hurt and there was nothing I could do about it. I saw you lying in the hospital bed and it was because of me. I couldn’t be reminded every day that I hurt you like that. I should have protected you more. I left because I couldn’t protect you like a boyfriend should have. I’m a cop and your boyfriend and I couldn’t protect you.” by the end of his speech we were both crying. I’m sure for different reasons.