I'm still checking on him, pinapaalam sakin ng bestfriend namin how's he doing. And I know he's happy.
May nagpapasaya na ulit sa kanya.
May boyfriend na din ako ngayon, and okay naman kami.
He knows about James, he knows that James' my greatest love, my TOTGA.
...
After 3 yrs, nagkita kami ulit.
Binyag ng baby ng bestfriend namin, kinuha kaming ninang/ninong.
He smiled at me, nag smile din ako.
My heart was beating so fast, mahal ko parin sya.
Ang civil lang ng pag-uusap namin. He even joke about our past.
After ng binyag, he offered me a ride, he also asked me to have a "friendly date" muna before nya ako ihatid pauwi.
Tinutukso kaming dalawa but tawa lang sya ng tawa, ako lang naman kasi ata yung affected.
Pumayag ako at sumama.
Siguro closure nadin namin.
We already ate sa binyag so namasyal lang kami.
We talk about random things and napag-usapan din namin yung past at present namin.
He doesn't hate me anymore, in fact, parang ang saya-saya nya na ngayon sa bago nya.
He asked me if we can talk in private, baka daw may makakita sa kanya na kilala ng gf nya.
Pumayag naman ako, so we went somewhere private.
We continued our conversation there.
Then we got to the point that we talked about our feelings for each outher, naluha ako, hindi ko napigilan at inamin ko na mahal ko parin sya,
And what happened next was unexpected.
He told me that he still feels the same way pero hindi na pwede kasi nga ayaw na nya masaktan At mahal nya na din yung gf nya.
And I totally understand.
Nagkatitigan kami since wala na kaming masabi sa isa't isa.
While looking at his eyes bumalik yung mgs alaala namin, naiiyak naman ako.
I was shock for what he did next.
He pulles me close to him and kissed me.
Yung feeling na parang sasabog ako, mix emotions.
I was so happy, but i feel guilty sa taong nasasaktan namin ngayon.
But fck them! This is JAMES! I love him!
Nagpadala ako sa emotion na yun.
At may nangyari saming dalawa.
