"Art book" 2

Another person

Can I.. Can I just be honest with you?
I mean, you gave your opinion of me, so I'll do the same. Is that.. Okay?
D-don't be offended by this, okay..?

I just think of you as another person I'll let down.

Ah- why? W-well, you know I told you about my problems and such— Right? And how I know that my friends have problems but I never speak of it in fear I'll make it worse? But yet I know that not addressing it will also.. Make it worse..
I just.. Run away from my problems and say I got distracted. And I do. I get so distracted being overwhelmed that I don't want to talk for days.

And they won't open up to me either. If I ask if they're okay the won't even say. But that's fine! I understand that.

I understand that.

I understand, that sometimes I'm too boring and annoying to listen to. And it's okay! I just can't change.

I understand people just don't see me as a shoulder to cry on.

I understand sometimes I ramble too much about something I like and no one listens.

I know they just don't want to hurt my feelings so they say it's okay.

I'm just afraid the same thing will happen to you.
You know?

You're a new friend, after all. And as I said.
You opinion of me will change.
No matter how damn much you think it's true, I'll do it to you.

I'll let you down. I won't be there when you need me the most. I won't entertain your replies forever and you won't do the same in exchange.

I know life, _______. I know how this all works and I know, I know, it'll happen to you too.
I don't even know why you classify me as a friend.
But you.. Don't know how horrible I am yet.

Yes, that's why.

Once you experience how I let you down just like I did with everyone,
You'll stop seeing me as you do now.

It happens with everyone.

You're just another victim.

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This is not addressed to anyone at all. Just, I guess, new people I meet.

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