Promise To A Brother

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Happy's POV

Waking up the next morning, Lisa isn't in bed. Getting up, I walk into the living room and see her sitting on the couch with a cup of coffee. Sitting beside her, I asked, "How long you been up?" She doesn't look at me but says "About an hour." Taking the cup from her hands, I sit it on the coffee table and pull her to me. Lifting her chin to look at me, I asked "Are you okay babe?" I can see the sadness in her eyes when she answers "What did I do to make him hate me so much?" I don't know how to answer that but I say the only thing I can think of. "He didn't hate you. He just wasn't right." She looks at me and I can see she is starting to calm down. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't be upset. I'm not a very good Old Lady am I?" she looks down at her hands. Shocked, I pull her to straddle me and take her face in my hands, "You are an amazing Old Lady. I never thought I would settle down with anyone but you changed that. You are strong, baby but you don't have to be strong all the time. I'm here if you need to break down. Don't hide that from me." I tell her. She lays her head on my shoulder and we just sit there. A few minutes later, I feel her kissing my shoulder and up my neck. I pull her to look at me and I kiss her softly.

Picking her up, I carry her to the bedroom and lay her down. Laying over her, I kiss her softly and whisper "I love you Little Girl." She smiles into my kiss and whispers "I love you too Hap. Always." Laying next to her, I pull her to me and lay there thinking about her. I never saw myself in a relationship, with and Old Lady or even married. But here I am. Married, and happy about it. I guess Koz knew what he was doing. Rat Bastard. Laying there, rubbing circles on Lisa's back, I catch myself thinking about what our kids would look like. I know she is going to want kids and if that is what she wants, I will give it to her but I don't know what kind of dad I would be. Would I be able to be a good dad? Or will I be the same piece of shit disappointment my Old Man was? Sensing eyes on me, I look down at Lisa and she asked "What are you thinking about?" I look at her for a second and try to decide if I should tell her. Sitting up, she looks at me and says, "What's wrong, Hap?" I can see the worry in her eyes. "Nothing babe. Just thinking about how nice this is. I love you." I tell her. She kisses me softly and lays back down and drifts off to sleep.

Pulling onto the lot the next morning, I pull Tig aside. "Hey Brother, Can I get a minute?" I asked him. "Sure." He says and leads me back to his dorm. "What's up brother? Is it Lisa?" he asked concerned. "Lisa's good but I need some advice man." I say, sitting down in his desk chair. He sits down on the end of his bed and waits for me to speak. "I know Lisa wants kids and I want to give her kids. I have never seen myself as a dad, man. It scares the hell out of me that I'm going to be a shit dad like mine was. What do I do?" I asked him. Being a dad, he knows my fears. "Man, look, all you can do, is be there. Make sure your kids know you. Be there for her when her and the little ones need you. As long as you do that? You will be a great dad. Just love her and the kids and everything will be fine." he says. I think about what he says for a minute and hug him, "Thanks brother." We walk out of the room and head out to our bikes to take care of business for the club.

Getting home that night, I am tired and bloody. Not my blood of course but still. Walking in, I head to the shower. Once I step into the shower, I hear the door open and see through the shower door that Lisa is getting my dirty clothes and putting them in a plastic bag and putting clean clothes on the counter for me. "Thanks Babe." I say through the door of the shower. She doesn't say anything, just goes about her business. Finishing my shower, I walk to the living room and she is sitting on the couch and looks deep in thought. "You okay?" I asked her. "Yeah. How was the run?" she asked me. "Didn't go as planned but we all came back whole." I tell her. "Good." she replies. We sat and watched TV until we decided to head to bed.

Laying in bed, with Lisa curled up next to me, I can tell something is going on. She's too quiet and seems off in her own little world. "I need to talk to you." I tell her. Sitting up, she looks at me. I sit up and lean against the headboard and I start talking. "Your brother's letter told me a couple of things that you would want. Marriage and kids." I start. "I know, Hap. But like I said, I won't hold you to that if it isn't what you want." she says, looking down at her hands. "I want to start trying for a kid." I tell her. Her eyes shoot up and she looks at me wide eyed. "What?" she asked. "You want a baby?" she asked me still shocked. "Yeah. I do. I was a little freaked out thinking I wouldn't be a good dad but I spoke to Tig and got some good advice from him. I want a kid with you." I tell her. I see her smile as a tear rolls down her face. "That's good to know." she tells me. "Wanna start now?" I asked her, pulling her to straddle me. "You're a little late to the game Hap." she says. I look at her confused and she pulls an ultrasound picture out of the night stand, "I'm nine weeks pregnant." I look at the picture and back at her with a smile on my face. "I'm gonna be a dad." I turn her over and make love to my wife, the mother of my child.