Chapter 4
I knocked lightly on his hotel room door, I knew nobody would be in here but him as everyone was still downstairs finishing off their meals. I heard movement in the room but there was still no answer to the door. I bit my lip and knocked once again, a bit louder this time, I didn’t know if he was purposely not answering, all I wanted to do is explain.
‘Justin? It’s me. Please open the door.’ I said with plea in my voice.
The movement stopped and then started back up again but this time I heard footsteps moving towards the door and I smiled lightly to myself as I heard him unlocking the door from the other side and then the door swung open to reveal a shirtless Justin Bieber, his hair was messed up and he looked as if he hadn’t long woke up.
My eyes trailed down his body taking in a few tattoos also, I let my eyes fall back to his face as he had a slight smirk printed on his face.
‘Not the first time you have seen me topless, no need to drool.’ He said as he opened the door wider allowing me to enter, so I did.
Justin’s body was lying on one side of his large bed and I sat crossed legged next to him as I looked down at his slightly elevated head.
I bit my lip once again, it was a habit and I found myself doing it constantly, sometimes with not even a reason why.
‘U-Uh, I’m sorry if I woke you or anything.’ I stuttered out, I didn’t really know how I was going to explain anything yet.
He shook his head as he moved one of his hands down to my knee as he stroked his thumb lightly over it as if soothing me.
He hadn’t spoken yet apart from when we were by the door and I was beginning to feel uncomfortable was I meant to apologise? I don’t even know what I did wrong really but I just felt as if in order to get him to talk, that’s what, I needed to do.
‘Come here...’ I heard Justin mutter as he moved both of his hand to elope mine as he pulled my body to his side, he rolled me on top of him and he wrapped his arms securely around my waist.
My heart jumped at the sudden contact, I always felt like I was squashing him but I did like the position nonetheless.
‘I’m sorry...’ I muttered into his chest as I lay my head into the crook of his neck.
His fingers brushed through my hair as he got rid of some of the tangles.
‘It was only a joke, I promise.’ I said, I felt so vulnerable around him, it was like whenever we got into a argument we both knew it wouldn’t be for long, it was like we was always drawn back together, nothing seemed to keep us apart. We were like two magnets.
‘You aren’t the one needing to say sorry...’ He muttered as he took in a sharp breath as if what he was about to say next was going to break him. ‘You really deserve someone better Olivia, you deserve someone who can show you off, who can hold your hand in public and who can be there for you when something goes wrong. I can’t do that, I’m never around when you need me because the times we are together is usually in the middle of the night when nothing is wrong. If anything ever happens I’m the last to find out and I know that’s not your fault but I hate the fact that sometimes you’ve been struggling through the whole day, other people comforting you but I should be them, I want to be the one helping you but I can’t be around.’
He wasn’t even looking at me, he was staring blankly at the ceiling above, I could feel my eyes brim with tears as I took in everything he had said, I knew what he was talking about through it all, things get complicated everyone knew that... but, he was actually the only to make it better.
‘Justin, I don’t need someone to show me off. And you are always there for me and I know that, I know when something hard is going on back home that I will be able to stay with you for the night and immediately all of the pain goes away. I don’t need you comforting me through the day because just knowing you will be able to make it better later is worth the wait. You do help me, Justin. Why can’t you see that?’ I said.
Justin’s eyes trailed down to mine as I let a single tear slip from the corner but I wiped it away in a hurry. Justin’s grip tightened on my waist.
‘I’m not good enough for you...’ He muttered into my hair.
My heart skipped a beat as I jumped to conclusions straight away. Was he stopping whatever this was? Was he just saying all of this so he seemed like he had a better reason to break with me. He could have anybody he wanted as I could already tell as he had his beautiful famous girlfriend, Selena Gomez.
I was nothing and he could have anything, that person was definitely not meant to be me.
‘Just say it Justin...’ I mumbled as I rolled off his body and off the bed so I was stood beside it with a confused looking Justin staring right at me, I let a tear slip and soon another, oh well I have opened the gate now! My tears weren’t going to stop.
‘Say what? Why are you crying?’ He asked as he moved so he was up right on the bed in front of me, he went to take my hands into his but I took a step backwards as I shook my head.
‘You’re saying all this but it’s really just an excuse to break up with me isn’t it? Saying you’re not good enough but you’re really talking about me. I’m not good enough for you; you can have anybody you want... you have Selena, she’s famous, she’s beautiful and she is the person you want, not me.’ I said. ‘Gosh, I’m so stupid...’ I mumbled to myself as I kept backing away from Justin, I spun on my heel and ran from the bedroom door but not quite quick enough as a hand gripped mine and spun me in place.
‘What are you going on about Olivia?’ Justin said as he placed both of his hands on my cheeks and stared deeply into my eyes.
I sucked in a breath from the close proximity, breathe Olivia, breathe. You can do this, it’s painful now but it can only get better when this is all over. There will be no more guilt, no more pain every time Justin and Selena make the front cover of the magazines labelled as ‘Hottest Couple’, you’re not going to have to worry about any of it... because he’s letting you go.
‘You’re stopping all this between us. I get it.’ I said trying to force a smile onto my face, I lifted the corners of my mouth slightly before they fell again; his eyes were captivating as they softened in front of me.
He shook his from left to right. ‘Where did you get that from?’ He said his voice softening.
I shook my head. ‘I’ve got to go...’ I tried to pull his hands away from my face but he kept his grip as he smashed his lips against mine, it was quite forceful yet passionate at the same time, I could feel my knees grow weak from beneath me, Justin moves his hands away from my face and before I knew it I was lifted from the ground and pushed with my back against the bed as he hovered over top, his lips split from mine for a few seconds as he studied my expression before pressing his lips back to mine...
- Like I said before when I am away from him I know all that is wrong about this relationship but when we are together it all disappears.
I knew I needed to stick my ground but it was hard as he even knew my weakness. He knew how to gain control but I always let my guard down when it came to him, to me he seemed perfect no matter the arguments we would get in and even pushing what this actual relationship was a side.
I could trust him with anything.
But she would soon realise... She could trust him with anything, but not her heart.
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Read : Again, I realise this is terrible and I don’t know if I took this chapter the wrong way with too much ‘emotion’ between the pair.
But showing more emotion would make a harder ending to what is to come so hopefully it will work out :S
I suck at this. Haha.
