Destroyed and Recovered

Chapter 9: "I really need to get my shit together."

I don't know if I should wake him up by screaming or wait until he wakes up by himself just to scream to him then. I feel used... He knew I was drunk and he just took advantage of me. I feel disgusted. This shouldn't happened.

I cover myself with a towel, which I found near the bed, and start making my luggage. God, I can't believe Matt was such an asshole.

After 10 minutes I was done, and I looked at him ons again. I can't believe this, even when I'm pissed at him he still was looking fucking hot, making me wanting to stay here. But no, what he did really pissed me off and I need some time alone.

So I found myself heading back to my little cave. On my way there I stopped at a supermarket to buy some bottles of vodka, feeling the need to drown myself in alcohol. When I finally got there, I just sat down with my bottle of vodka already opened, and after half a bottle, I started wondering. What the fuck am I doing with my life? I just live in a fucking cave and get screwed by a guy I just met? I mean, I know I don't deserve much more than this, but at least let's not live on the streets, shall we? I need to find a small apartment or something as small as possible. And I need to find a way to somehow get some money, I can't live with the amount of cash I have now for my whole life, right? I really need to get my shit together.

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yeah so idk if this makes any sense at all, I just remembered i was writing something here at some point and i thought maybe i could try to continue it? if i don't write 3 chapters (that are more than 1 page) in the next month i'll delete the whole thing and continue on with my life