Salia Fanfic ~ Simon Minter And Talia Mar~

032; Simons Pov One

“Simon I-”

“Don't” I snap, I don't really want to hear you exuces” I say, not meaning to sound bitter or cruel but it was the truth.

I stop for a moment, taking in the delicate features I had wasted so much time longing to see again.

And now, here she was for whatever reason she had chosen now to come back, now when it was to late. Her hair was longer now, just below her shoulders and her brown eyes still as captivating as the first time my own blue ones had connected with them.

“What are you doing here Nataliah?” I ask, my minds running a million miles per hour, she didn't seem to notice.

I had become pretty good at masking my emotions.

She mutters something, quite enough that I couldnt make out what it was. It was a familiar look she had as if she was preparing herself for the worse.

“Okay, Si I get it okay I do I fucked up and you're hurt but I just I need you to listen will you do that for me?” She asked, my mind tells me the best thing I can do for myself is to walk away but looking at her now I know in my heart I can't walk away.

“I'm listening”

“I know this isn't what you want to  hear and I know you have Lola now and I-” She pauses, taking a shaky nervous breath. “But I'm going to say this anyway I love you Simon, I am embarrassingly in love with you just complete and honest love and I completely understand that it's probably to late for us so I'm not completely sure why I'm wasting my time telling you all this when theirs no point to it all” She stops again, taking another breath, I just watch her taking in ever bitter sweet word.

I had waited so long to hear those three words come from her sweet lips, I love you and yet the spark those words would once ignite was no where to be felt.

“And I know I've made one big fucking mess by leaving sometimes I just don't have control what I feel just takes over” She rambles hoplessly, the words just flowing out uncomfortably, “Things just got so hard, me and you were so toxic and there was so little of me left”

“I don't know how to say what I feel, I was never good at it but if there was ever a time for me to really be honest with you it would be now” Slowly, I make my way closer to her step by step, “I need you gone, its harsh I know but it is honesty you need right now because if you came here tonight thinking I would go running back into your arms then you truly don't know me all” We were now face to face, my hand placed gently on the side of her cheek catching the tears before they could even think to fall, “Sure, some deranged part of me still wants to give you another chance because I'm not sure the kind of love I had for you comes around twice, I mean it called true love for a reason its not all that easy to come by” Lowering my hand from her face I intertwine her soft hands with mine lifting out hands that were now tightly woven together, “We used to be so right for each other, not anymore you need to understand that I don't want the same things I wanted a year ago. I don't want us anymore, there isn't even an us to want because I need something else now and I'm not all to sure what that something is but I know its not you. You may have been the one who walked away Talia but clearly  you haven't let go but I need you to do for me, you need to let go and then I need you to remove yourself from my life and never come back” I demanded, releasing the grasp on her hands stepping back.

“Tell me you don't give a shit me!” She cried, the tears staining her face causing her eyes to turn blood shot as small red blotches appeared on her face. “Tell me you've moved on, I mean completely moved on that there's not an ounce of you that feels a single shred of love for me and I'll do exactly that I'll let go” She shouts.

“I don't love you” I say my voice completely monotone stripped of any emotion, “Were over, you made sure of that a long time ago”

She turns, picking her bag from the ground she wipes the tears from her face and with a surprising grace considering the circumstances walks away.

I had lied, of course I still loved her but what we had was truly over. What she needs is to learn to feel nothing for me because she was right we are toxic and nothing good could ever come from us being together.

Sometimes love isn't enough, and people break up and then they move on.

Tears started to well up in the corners of my eyes but it wasn't a horrible heart breaking sadness in the pit of my stomach, no this was a happy bitter sweet kind of sad.

This was the start of something new for us both, the start of us having our own happiness not having to depend on someone else for it.

The last couple of months with Lola have taught me so much, all I wanted for so long was to have Talia safe in my arms again. And then the minute I saw her again I just felt like I was being suffocated and I didn't want Talia anymore I wanted Lola.

With Lola it may not be love, not yet, but I have laughed more and I have done more than I had in years shes been there for me I needed her and she showed up for me. I get it now, constantly holding on to the past is what's been killing me slowly and I won't do it anymore.

I finally feel free, and despite her mistakes Talia deserves to feel that way again to.

So I let her let me go and in doing so I set her free.

[A/N

Ahhhhh😭😭

Aha plz Don't kill me.

I know some of you may be dissatisfied but this was never supposed to be a happy ending story for these two.

This whole plot is about those relationships that break up and don't end up fixing things because most often then not breakups  don't end with love dovey happiness sometimes people screw up so badly that love isn't enough and I really wanted to try and capture that with this FF.

There is a couple of chapters left.

-Sadie]