Salia Fanfic ~ Simon Minter And Talia Mar~

027: Talias Pov One

I lifted my phone from my front pocket, dialling a familiar number, wondering if this was even her number anymore.
Then it stoped, and the tense ringing sound turned into my best friends voice. My breathing hitched and for the first time in a year I felt a perfect sense of normality.

"Hey, who is this?" Her perky voice questions, a smile tugged at my lips, she seemed happy.

"Hey, Gee" I had forgotten, how the name of my friend sounded in my voice, hearing it again opened up a part of myself I had locked away.

"This can't be real" she says in disbelief, I take a seat on a bench close to where I was previously standing as I waited for the train to arrive.

"Oh but it is" I confirm, biting on my lip struggling to workout how she would react.

I hadn't seen her in almost a year, and as stupid as calling her was, I had to know everyone was okay.

"Where are you?" She demands, in a tone wich I instantly knew ment she would be happy to drop all she was doing to come find me.

"I um, I'm back in England now, Italy was amazing but I had to come home" I did my best to explain without raising her hopes to high, "I'm not coming back Gee, I can't" I finally say, not letting on to the fact I was back in London.

It would hurt her to much, knowing I was so close yet far enough to be out of reach.

"You can Talia" She states, "You just don't want to" She breaths out, as if she was disappointed with the way things had turned out, as was I.

"Same thing, sometimes what you feel just takes over" I say, and by now we could hear each others cries down the phone, "and you know me Gee, I always was to impulsive" We both let out a short chuckle, followed by another flow of tears, the following words almost getting stuck in my throat the feeling of suffocating almost becoming to much, almost, "and leaving, even if it wasn't it felt like it was the only option and so does not coming back" I reasoned, sinking further back into the bench, wiping my eyes with my hoodie as makeup wipes of with the tears.

"If you aren't coming back to me, back to all of us then why did you call?" She asks, in distress and warranted confusion, "Did you just want to stick the knife further in because congratulations T, you did it" She exclaims.

"Of course not, Gee" I deny, "This is the last you're ever going to hear from me, I promise you that" I say, and for the first time it was a promise I had hoped I wouldn't keep. "And I just need to know, is everyone okay?" I ask, hesitant of the answer my mind drifting to Simon and the mess I would be if he had done this to me when we were together.

"Okay, ill tell you" She replies hesitantly, "But I'm not sure you want to know" She warns, causing the fear to triple.

"I do"

"Everyone was a mess, no one wanted to face the harsh reality that you were truly gone but life after you wasn't any better if that's what was going through your head when you left" She says, almost as if she still truly knows me, but how could she when a year had changed everything, "Freya, Sarah and all the girls along with the lads where obviously in pain, loosing someone would do that to you, but no one hurt more Simon" She says, stopping at his name, as if she was checking I was okay for her to carry on.

"Tell me he's alright" I sigh heavily, my voice shaking along with the rest of my body.

"He's better now not completely but still better, he's not over you and truthfully everyone knows he won't ever be, not fully" She explains, "You left and his world came crashing down around him and I don't know how he survived the pain of drowning every day when he would wake up realising you wernt there, your memories still rattling around in his head torturing him but you still weren't there. I admire that boy, hes surviving and I know you're wondering if there's someone new he's in a relationship with" She says, my breathing hitches, the thought of Simon with another girl could never sit right with me, not that I had the right to be upset, "He doesn't have a girlfriend no, but pretty much every night he wakes up with a new girl in his bed, and I think in his own messed up way he's just desperately searching for the love he deserves to still have from you because you're not here to give it him anymore" She explains, he sounds lost and I did that to him.

I hurt the boy, I left to not hurt, the irony stang like a bitch.

"So he's better" I repeat, finding some peace with the fact that he can live without me, and he will. "Thank you Gee, a part of me was scared you would hang up as soon as you heard my voice" I admit.

"No, I would never and as much as I want to jump through this phone and murder you for leaving me you're going to have to do a lot worse, I don't know why if this was any one else they'd be dead already" She laughs lightly, and for a moment it feels like the old us, and unfortunately in a matter of seconds It all has to go away again. "I don't fully get it, but I supposed it's apart of this whole best friends thing" She says, a smile
tugging at my lips, I suppose time and distance doesn't have power over some friendships.

"Gee" I sigh.

"I know, this is goodbye again isnt it" She sighs back in defeat.

"I love you G" I say, dismissing the question as it was one I had learnt hurt to much to answer.

"I love you to T-" She replies, only I give her no time to say another word before the line goes dead as I end the call.

I do my best to steady my breathing, wiping the tears that had stained my face I stand up from the uncomfy bench.

"Fuck" I mumble, hating myself for calling, it only hurt more to hear her voice, to hear how he was doing.

I walk over to a bin, dropping my phone onto the harsh concrete I stomp on it, crushing it completely, before picking it back up and chucking it in the near overflowing bin.

No one can ever find me, I remind myself before walking to my train stop, that had finally arrived.

Goodbye, Gee.

[A/N

Side note I've started writing a new wroetoshaw Fanfic the first two parts are out if you want to go give it a read it would be appreciated♥️

Also I've started writing another a Salia fanfic that one should have many more happier chapters. Lastly, I'm also currently writing another wroetoshaw FF about Harry and his actuall girlfriend Katie.

~Sadie]