Dark Woods Circus: Kaito x reader

A message from Kaito

Hi, (y/n)... 

I'm asking the author of the book to write this letter to you since I'm still learning to speak properly. It's been hard though, I keep messing up some words like shoe and book. Speaking of which: why are most of them have pictures? It looks cute but I wanna read a real book. Can you see if you send me one? 

You see...I'm in a place where security is tight, no not the circus. It's a place I'll describe to you later when me and the author return.. 

We're both having some trouble with each other. She wants me to take better care of myself, but I told her other wise. We did argue a lot..but we both agree that life isn't being fair. Like making you fear me when I should be making you feel safe, her trying to find ways for us to be together, and just the both of us having days where one or the other ignores our ideas. So it's been hard trying to escape her clutches. 

But please don't feel sad, I'm safe with some nice food, away from the ringmaster (for now >:) ) and I have a nice and soft bed I wished had you with it. And we both had some blankets, we could built something I heard called a pillow fort, or watch tv (but please no music awards) or just sleeping with you in "pj's". It's all I want... For now, This is what I want to say to you..Whenever you think I'm gone, please read it and don't forget that we still have a world to see together..Okay, the author better get ready. 

I love how you're this amazing person in the entire world. That when I first met you, I didn't know if you would be the same person that would make me feel..less human. Giving me another reason why I should end my life, why I don't deserve to live, even give me the push to try and end it all...That was all my life until I met you.. 

You gave me so much love, so much happiness: Here's the list because he's going on and on, and I have homework to finish: (btw, this goes out to anyone here)

1). You are so beautiful/handsome that I nearly believed you were a god/goddess when you saw my hideous face. 

2). When you called me beautiful, it was the first time that anyone has ever told me that. It made me realize the kind of monster I had become..

3). Your (e/c) are like beautiful stained glass that I can't stop looking at. It made me feel so alive just seeing them with happiness or when you imagine anything you love, or just filled with so much emotion, it's like you're teaching me what being a human means. 

4). No matter what, I'm going to try my hardest to escape here just to hold you close and whisper how much I love you. 

5). I'll never leave your side. As I know that I can protect you, I will understand that you are your own person. I'll respect whatever choices you make, support you through anything or about anyone in your life, dry any tears that have been bottled up for so long, hug you until you fall asleep in my arms, or just hear whatever you need to rant or vent about. I'm here whenever you need me.. 

Sorry, I guess I got carried away///00/// 

I just can't stop myself from talking about you, you're all that I have in my life. I would never let anyone or anything take you away from me. I just want to thank you, for everything. 

Sorry, I gotta do with the author. We're going to see who gets "the top bunk". But I think I'll just sleep on the floor, I don't want to hog the whole thing...at least not yet. >:) 

My sweet (y/n), I love you so much. I can't wait until we see each other again....I miss you so much, please take care of yourself for me? Even just a small thing is enough to let me know that you're healthy and strong. 

Your's, 

KaItO 

(A/n: sorry guys, but I'm gonna have to push this to June or July to finish. School hasn't been very nice and I'm in the time out corner because of it. Me and Kaito are going to spend some time discussing any changes we want to make to this journey, so you'll might see some updates big or small. I'm so sorry, I'll study my ass off just to finish this. See ya until summer my chickadees!!!)n