Unexpectedly Mine [Melissa X Lucinda]

Chapter 10~Talks In Bed

Prompt - I can't remember why I ever loved you.

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'He stood there, his body facing hers. He was looking down, not daring to look up. He knew he messed up, and he hadn't come to terms with that with himself until now. Now he had to admit it to her.'

Lucinda had again woken up first that morning. It was bright and early, the break of dawn. This time, when she woke up, she stayed in bed. The puppy came to greet her too. She tried to fall back asleep, but after failing and just laying there with her eyes open, she opened her phone and scrolled through KimStagram. 

One of the things that caught her eye was ice cream. Well, ice cream with words written on top of it. The sentence that was on the first picture, with the ice cream, read:

'I can't remember why I ever loved you.'

The remaining pictures of that one post was a story. It was short, and there was a cliffhanger. But that story meant a lot. It meant a lot in general and to Lucinda. The story was angsty and filled with heartbreak. That made sense considering the prompt that they used. 

'And I find that messed up because I still do. But last night me said otherwise. I know what I had done, and I wish I didn't. Don't forgive me, you know you shouldn't.'

But that sentence wasn't only angsty, it was... something else too. Lucinda kept on thinking  about that sentence, and kept re-reading the story over and over again while she did that. She mostly read it out loud, but sometimes she cut off at some parts. That just meant she dove deep into a thought.

'Please. The girl pleaded. I thought we had something that night, I know we had something that night. Why do you think we were here yesterday? Because that night happened, and it meant something. I don't know if it meant something to you, but it meant something to me. And right now, I'm begging you, please, let what you said not be real.'

It was weird, because everytime Lucinda read that part, it reminded her of herself and Melissa. She didn't know why. But as she thought of that, she thought of the first sentence and it was just a jumbled mess of confusion in her head. There were thoughts that were running in and out of her mind, some popping out and becoming said aloud. 

Lucinda only mentioned some of her thoughts out loud because she thought that nobody was listening. Yes, she did have two puppies in the same bed as her, but they were both fast asleep, or so.

Melissa was awake the whole time that thoughts were running through her girlfriend's mind. Some of the thoughts that she had heard come out of Lucinda's mouth were questionable, philosophically. And Melissa was going to start asking her about them, but decided to wait for the perfect time. Which was now, when Lucinda just said the words:

'Why did she ever love me?'

 At this point Melissa was done. She sat straight and took Lucinda into her arms. Lucinda was taken aback, not knowing that Melissa was awake but then she hugged her back. They let go and Melissa took Lucinda's hands in hers. She started off with, "Lucinda, that night in Starlight. Remember that?" Lucinda nodded. 

"Well that night, when I saw you, I didn't know who you were, because of the mask of course. But then I saw your hair and I immediately realised it was you. You, as in the girl I fell in love with. Even though we barely knew each other then, I was in love and I knew it. And I could not have given up my chance to Garroth." Lucinda smiled at that.

'That's what I asked myself last night, after I made my mistake. One that could cost me the end of us, and up until today, I still don't know the answer.'

"I'm going to be completely honest with you, I can't remember why I ever loved you. Every night, that question is stuck in my mind, and sitting here right now, I still don't know the answer." Lucinda looked down. Melissa placed a hand on her cheek to get her to look up at her again. 

'I fell in love with you because I knew you were a good man, and you still are. This isn't the end of us, I don't give up that easily. We're not broken, just bent. And you can fix this. Please try, for me, for us.'

"What I do know though, is that I love you. Do I need a reason to love you? I don't think so. So yeah, I love you, end of story."

'I will try, for you, for us.'

"I love you."

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who caught that P!nk reference?

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