×The Light At The Other End Of The Tunnel×

|•Damn Flashbacks•|

TW-Thoughts of sucide, cuts, fire, sad boios

∆Rich Goranski∆

I never thought it would turn this way... The damned squip did this... No I can't blame a damn super computer that I put in my brain I caused the fire! I'm the reason my best friend is now laying at home struggling to do everyday things such as walking to the bathroom! It's my fault I don't know why I blame other things for my actions it just happens, The only thing that keeps me motivated is that he's not dead because of me, Why did he save me? I'm not that important or really needed? I sigh and walk to my bathroom splashing water in my face as I look at the medicine cabinet in front of me. I once tried to kill myself about a week after the fire... When I found out Jake had broken both hid legs trying to save me from the fire I started. Cause of me he doesn't have a home now it's all my fault... I close my eyes and mean against the wall sliding down until I'm sitting on the cold undetailed tiles placed across the messy bathroom and started to think which made my mind bring into horrible flashbacks.

I was asleep until I heard the ringing of my almost broken phone to the right side of my uncomfortable bed, I reached my short arm over and grabbed the phone seeing an unknown ID and answered ''Hello?'' I said quietly until the lady on the other side of the phone started to speak into the phone with worry in her voice..

''excuse me? Is this Rich Goranski?'' she mumbled just loud enough to sound a bit audible she had horrible customer service

I shrugged and cleared my throat as it's always dry in the mornings "Yes I'm Rich how may I help you,?" Well damn I got better customer service then the lady working

"Well I was told to call you and have you talk to Jake Dilinger'' She said and you could hear her looking threw her note pad for the name wow what great working she then handed the phone to Jake

"Hey Rich..." It hurt to hear that you could tell he was crying by the crack in his voice that I abousloutly hated

"Jakey-D.... How are you? I'm so sorry I didn't mean for you to get hurt I know you hate me but I'll stay out of your way!" I ranted threw the phone hoping I wouldn't begin to cry and sound like a pussy

"no-no-no Rich I promise I'm fine don't blame yourself" I heard him mumbled it was quite cause I had the phone away from my face " I just gotta use a wheelchair both my legs are unusable currently but I can manage!"

I started to cry then and there pressing the hang up button painted red across my screen, Throwing my phone I ran to the bathroom grabbing a small razor... I stopped because of Jake... He helpled me... But now this... He can't even walk! I pressed down on my pale skin with the blade and let out a help as the blood started to drop down and into the sink falling down the metal drain slowly... It looked like a horror scene in a movie. I didn't make to many cause I really didn't want that to be the way I went, I looked at my medicine and grabbed many bottles and most of them were empty or expired which meant no use there... I just went back to bed hoping God would take my breath that night.
Currently

I cut a lot more after that day... Opening my eyes I looked at the clock ''12:03 am'' I sighed I hated being awake late at night since I could never get back to sleep... I always had something to look forward to in the mornings which was seeing Jake... But now there's really no use if you think about it. Who would wanna see the person who almost got you killed and burned down your really nice house cause they were selfish and didn't wanna burn down there own house cause it would be to obvious. I really just wanna know why he saved me he never really thought about me that much ever before and we've been friends for awhile... God I wish he felt the same I did for him...

First Chapter!
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Well I hope y'all like it
Peace out y'all
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