Foolishly in love

Meeting Him

          I've been single almost my whole life. Every time I meet a guy I always tell them I'm taken and the ones I actually give a chance it never goes far. We text here and there, couple of phone calls but when it's time to meet I never feel comfortable enough to go through with it.
           July 23, 2017 I go to my little job at Walmart, normal day guys hitting on me, laughing at their compliments but not really feeding into them. But then here comes this fine ass, tall, muscular, light skinned, pretty eyes guy coming through my line. I'm checking out this older white guy and he keeps trying to talk to me and crack jokes but I'm not paying attention to none of it. I fake laugh at what he's saying so I don't come off rude but I have no clue what this guy is even talking about. I just keep looking to the back of the line and looking at this guy. But I'm trying not to stare too much but it's kinda hard. Finish checking the guy out and now I'm starting to check out this cute guy. I noticed that he's in line with a girl and a kid. Damn this nigga got a kid and a girlfriend, let me stop looking at him before she says something to me. I'm still checking them out but he walks off on the phone and I just look over at him like I can't stop looking at him. So I finish checking them out and I'm like whelp he was cute, taken but I'll never see him again. So they leave I move on to the next customer I'm checking them out and I noticed that the guy is coming back. So I'm thinking maybe they forgot a bag but I looked down and there wasn't any bags left but I ask him anyway " did you forget something?" He's like oh no we didn't forget anything but do you remember me? I'm like uhhh no, he's like well didn't you go to Jeff High? I'm like yeah I did go there but I don't remember you, he's like what's you're name ima add you on Facebook, so I showed him my name badge and then he left. So I continued checking out the customers they were gassing me up, saying he was cute, he was checking you out. I couldn't stop smiling. So I finished my shift, got off at a 11:00 pm, when I get to my car I checked my phone and he sent me a friend request on Facebook, so I got excited! I'm in my car doing a little dance and start singing " ayyyyye he sent me a friend request". It said that he sent it just an hour ago so I waited till I got home and got settled into bed before I accepted the request. I don't know why I waited I guess I did because I felt like it'd make me seem like I wasn't too desperate or eager to accept the request , really stupid reason. But as soon as I accepted his request he messaged me on Facebook.  He apologized for putting me on the spot in front  of the customers but that he found me attractive. When I was reading this it made me so happy. I'm not used to meeting guys and then giving them the chance to contact me via social media or text. So I was very excited that maybe this would be different and maybe we would start dating. Yes, I got all of that feeling just from the first message haha. So we talked about how awkward the situation was, I told him that I thought the girl he was with was his girlfriend and I thought that the kid was his son. He told me it was his sister and nephew and that made me feel even better because I don't wanna be that girl that talks to a guy knowing that he is with someone and has a family. We talked for the next couple of days and like two days later he asked me if I wanted to go see Transformers with him. So I'm like yea, I love Transformers, I haven't seen it yet let's go. So the day we decided to go I'm like let's go to the one at 6:45 pm which was in the next hour. He was like that's fine. So he called me but I missed the call, I called him back and he didn't answer. Something told me don't go to the movies until you talk to him but my dumbass went anyway. So he messaged me and said I'll call you back, I'm driving. So I'm like ok he must be on his way so I replied back like ok I'm at the movies. He replied back " whaaaaat my sister has a flat I was going to tell you I can't go at 6". Now I'm  pissed like really? I came here and you should of replied back the first time telling me you weren't going to be able to come. But I just replied back "ok". He kept apologizing and tried to call me but I was just over it and didn't even call or reply back.  So we chat on Facebook for a couple of days about 7 days in I have him my phone number and he invited me to come over and hangout with him. He was like we can hangout at his house or the park. I suggested going to the walking bridge and then he asked if I could pick him up because he didn't have his license. Now that was a red flag but I was like maybe he's working on it, I'm not going to totally cancel him because he doesn't have his license. So he sends me his address and I'm on my way over there. When I tell you I got lost going to his house, I probably drove by his house 10 times. Siri was telling me his house was coming up and then she said "arrived" and I was still driving. I didn't see him standing outside so I didn't know.  So finally I text him "I'm at the light" and he was like ok I'm coming out. So I see him he's waiving trying to flag me down and I pull up. I drive down to the river and we go down and we were climbing on the rocks and sat down and just talked. We talked about high school and he was telling me he really didn't know me, and he didn't know if I went to Jeff High he was just hoping I did. It made me laugh and then he was telling me a little about growing up here. I really enjoyed seeing him, it was the first time I've seen him since he came through my line. I actually got to look at him and he was even more attractive than before. It sucked that I couldn't stay long because I had to go to work. So we went back to his house and he let me use his bathroom so I could change into my work clothes. After I put my clothes on, I came outside and he was like alright have a nice day, give me a hug. It was the most awkward hug because I was trying to give him a church hug and he wanted me to give him a more affectionate hug with my arms up and his low and the way our arms got tangled up was weird haha. Very awkward and he was like " what kind of hug was that" and I'm like I know you messed me up. But after I had to speed to work, I was about to be late. I literally clocked in 1 minute before I was going to be considered late and if I would of received a point I would of been pissed because I could of spent more time with him. So I'm working and he texts me asking if I made it to work on time and he went on to tell me how beautiful I was and he would like to see me again.  For the next 3 weeks we text and message back and fourth on Facebook. He keeps asking me to come over his house to hangout, I keep giving him excuses on why I can't come. I just got nervous because I don't know him plus I can be awkward sometimes. I'm not used to flirting with guys in person. So every time he would ask me I would agree and then tell him I have to go do something.  I think that he was starting to get annoyed by it but he was still talking to me so I felt like I was eventually going to hangout with him again.