Her life is still terrible. She's still sad and she hates herself even more. She's told it's all gonna get better but it hasn't in the past 8 terrible years she's been dealing with. She's still losing friends, she's still insecure, she's still herself. Stuck in the sad self she was 8 years ago. She's realizing that life isn't stopping for anyone and is going to end one way or another.
Her favorite quote that she has in her locker is " Nobody gives a fuck until your dead" - Xxxtentacion
