Middle

chance

I woke at 4:00 am , I wasn't able to sleep well even to close my eyes but I can't ...
This is awful if you know what do I feel .
By the way I am  Summer , a normal teenager who is trying to be comfortable and mature , I know you may think this girl thinks too much . I know , but I do not want to make any stupid thing that will mess up my whole life and cause drama and bla bla bla ...
So back to my sleeping issue , I stepped out side the bed and walked down stairs to grab something to eat , I am crazy and sensitive when things come to food . Like Jesus if any human that is trying to mess up and disturb me while I am eating , Honey I will be your nightmare .
Opening the fridge and talking to myself :" hmmmm what to eat ? What to eat ? Ohhhhh I love my life !"
After seeing the beautiful chocolate cake waiting for me ...
You can call me Hulk if you want .
I finished eating the piece of cake , " offffff Why the hell I am still hungry ?!"
I immediately went back to my room without hesitation because if I stayed more I will eat the whole house including my parents and my both brother Jake and my sister Carmen .
Opening the laptop BTS popped  out  with their song Boy with love , not to forget Halsey she was their eighth member in my opinion , so I was being crazy about the song and completely addicted to it . By the way of course I have school today holy crap oh it is six in holy morning . God time is flying .
I lied in bed for another hour thinking about my friend If I have any feelings for him lately my feelings are so messed up , ughhhh I hate this situation .
He is not the handsome but his personality makes me attracted to him but I honestly don't know If he has any feeling for me .
I feel comfortable , crazy , confident but the ability of being  feeling safe around him still not sure .
My friend Katy was telling me that she was always trying to ship me with a stupid boy that I can't stand " Ladies and Gentlemen meet mister dumb dumb Ryder " I know he has feelings for me but like he is a little annoying brother to me . You know using the word (BRO ) all time is driving me crazy , but still he is like a GUM stuck to me all the time .
Tell me God why me ?
And in return I ship her with *him*his name is Henry , when I say his name in front of her she always mentions Ryder and then a little argument happens .
And the thing that is killing me is Henry and Katy both of them ships me with him , so when I want to play it dirty I say to Katy " Katy sweety honey bo bo do you miss (H)"
And then she shuts up .
7:4 am
Holy mother of Jesus . Show time .
Entering the bath room taking a shower . Feeling fresh after brushing me teeth , wearing the uniform and heading down to eat of course . Haha typical me ... Sorry .
Cheese sandwich and tea is the holy moly thing in the whole world and listening to BTS their song ( Don't leave me ) .
Few minutes the bus arrived saying Good bye to every one although they are sleeping .
7:55 am at school after a long bus tour and smelling every ones breath like God use toothpaste , brush your teeth okay ? Deal ? Please I beg you ! By the way I do not the whole morning even though I am showing mint gum .
Seeing the male and female species , and not saying a word . And bang , I am dead .
There are three students that I hate so much , bullies , butt heads .
I spent seven years knowing the two girl but the guy knew him for just three years but at the old shitty school .
I hate the fact that  know them all , when I switched  school I thought I got rid of them , but guess what ?
They switched too ! I wish they die and never see them .
Zendaya:" Bonjour Summer " the first butt head talked , saying her words filled with hate and venom .
Guess what I did not respond  because I am too lazy to talk haha take it bamboo ...
All this took two minutes but I felt I was an hour . I found Henry stepping outside his bus and looking around and his eyes met mine we walked in the same direction .
Henry :" Good morning "
" Hellur Hen " .
Henry :" Yo are  you okay ? You seem ..wait ... Did you sleep ? "
"No " and I giggled but I don't  know why !!!
"God you are crazy , If you sleep at class I will kill you . Treating with the red pen ". And  we both laughed hard . Because Henry and me are sitting next to each other in all the classes so when he sleeps suddenly I poke him with anything so he can wake up , but instead he wakes me up with his red pen .
The bell rang telling us that we have to be in hell for Sven periods straight . Katy didn't arrive yet ! Dang it where is she ?
" Henry we have physics first period , right ? Say no please. Prove me wrong ".
Henry :" Yep unfortunately ".
We reached the class , Yes YASSSSSSS the teacher is absent . The whole class was happy as if it is Christmas !!! We are nineteen students in the class .
Katy is absent too . So I have to stay with Henry although we stay with each the whole time .
" So is life summer ? " he asked . " Every thing is normal until now , I want chocolate !!! NOW ". I replied
" Jesus Christ you are crazy . Okay hold on I have chocolate ... GOD .. Here take it ".
" Hmnumnum yummy Oh God yes thank so much . This is so good . Wait OH MY GOD HENRY IS THIS PEANUT ?"
" Holy shit I forget that you can't eat peanut ".
Few seconds my face was a mixture a blue and red colors and I started to cough so hard and scratching my skin is burning and I am having attack at the same time .
" GUYS I NEED HELP !!!!!!!"
And then I felt someone carrying me to the nurse .
Black is all I see .
"Oh God I am so sorry !!! Yo wake the hell up . FUCK Jesus just open your eyes !!!". he screamed . Then I heard a very low voice saying :" I love you " . Shit ...
Waking up and seeing my mom and dad sleeping on the couch hold up I am in a hospital . That ended up too bad . And wait Henry is sleeping on the chair next to my bed holding my hand too tight . I want to talk but the oxygen thingy was on my mouth so I removed it and whispered " hey " .
" Oh thank God you woke up the doctor said you were about to ..."
" hey its okay , I am here fine and talking to you now , can't you see ?" I smiled .
" I am sorry , I .... nvm ".
" No say it do not do this too making me wait for too long to understand everything alone and by myself . okay just spit it out please !" I felt a single tear rolled down my cheek and his hands immediately cupped my face and whipped the tear saying " I ...I rea.. I love you , since I saw the first time you were crazy and cute and beautiful and other things that can't be said by words. Trying not think about all the time is impossible . I need you in my life you made feel loved and wanted in this life . so..."
I am speechless even though I heard him before saying I love you but this ....
" I know you will reject me anyways and I know that I will regret everything later , we are still young for these things , for love ... You feel cringed right ?".
" Who told you that I will reject you ? Huh ? Stop jumping into conclusions okay ! You are not me , not my heart and brain to know what I feel . I know we still young but making someone feeling loved and other stuff that are cringe but yet but it is  the best thing in this life . Saying the sentence I love you makes me feel ..." He cut me saying " Do you mean that you have feelings for me ? Tell me ".
" Yes yes yes ..." Then I started to cry feeling bad but I don't know  why, no I know why . Saying I love you to someone that might leave you any second or maybe this person might be board and want to break up and break your  heart. No I don't to experience all this shit .
" I will never leave you telling you that I am board and other stuff , I love you okay ?" Henry said . " Are you reading my mind ? " I said shocked . Sister shooketh !!!
"Dear God my baby are you okay ? Doctor ... Oh Doctor she is awake ". My mum started yelling not noticing that her voice woke up dad .
Dad :" Jesus woman . My love  you should calm down , she is okay !!!" And then he kissed mum on her  forehead making sure she is fine and relived .
They both where surprised  by Henry . " Hey ! How are you ? " henry asked nervously .Finally baba which means dad responded after few minutes " Fine son . What about you ? No offense why are you here with summer you should be in school !"
Henry :  " Sir it is my fault I gave summer the chocolate . I am so sorry I.I ."Baba cut him " It is okay son I know you didn't mean it , she is fine now Thank God ".
Mom :" Summer darling is anything hurting you ? "
"Mum I am totally fine , I want to go back to home relax and check what I have missed at school , but mom ..."
Mom :" Yes tell me ".
" Can Henry come to home with us , I need his help , it is very important for the Arabic project you know ?!. Of course after he says yes and ask his parents " and then I gave my parents those puppy eyes .
They both said yes in unison , I was then the happiest person ever , I looked at Henry waiting for his parents response which was yes .
6:30 pm we arrived home .
Henry carried my backpack and his too and we both headed to my room I opened the door " welcome to my room !" And we both laughed in  relieve. Suddenly he cupped my face saying :" You are beautiful no matter what you are doing , you are ..." And I cut him hugging him so tight he hugged tighter than me , and then he kissed my cheek .
I was surprised actually and speechless , yet I am glad that I gave him a chance and gave myself a chance too .
" Are you blushing ? Awww look at this cute face , you should see your reaction to the kiss !" He said .
" I am ..I..dunno what the hell was that . It is the first time a boy kissed my cheek " I said it in a very shy low voice I hope he didn't heard it .
" Summer are you kidding me ? It is okay , don't think too much " . he said
" Guys lunch is ready come on , yala ( which means come on in Lebanese )"
" okay " we both said it at the same time .
Running down stair my brother and sister ran to me hugging me and cutting of the oxygen so they want me dead , huh?
"Okay guys I am choking , I ca.c. can breath !" I said
Jake :" sister are you OK , I was so worried . Why happened ? Who is the stupid one who gave you peanut ?" He asked but then his face seemed that he is angry and waiting for my answer .
I shot him a glare the death star " Ahem ahem brother this person didn't mean to ...okay he forgot that I was allergic to those things . By the way this is my friend Henry , Henry this is my brother Jake .
They saluted each other .
" Yalla yalla the food us going to be cold " dad yelled from the kitchen .
7:55 we all finished eating , I know we ate very fast . Shoot we didn't even the project yet .
"Henry come in we have to do this project as soon as possible !!!"
" okay gurlll chill  am coming". He said from downstairs .
He entered and closed the door and then locked it . I wonder why ? Now who cares we have to do this project .
He started walking slowly and the distance is null between we are too close to each other , if he think that I am going to kiss ummm no hell naw to the naw naw naw , imagination was doing its job , guess what ? He hugged me :" Summer I am so sorry I am really sorry . I still feel guilty AF ". " Stop it Hen really you are very weird  I am fine standing in front of you and you hugging me , hellur !!!!"
He immediately backed up making sure that I am ready for this silly project .
We finished at 11:30 and we were about die my eyes are burning and he is fighting the idea of falling asleep , but every time he zoned out I poke him .
" Guys open the door now , what is going on ?" Baba said . I immediately  opened the door " Baba we finished now !!! We are dying !!!" I groaned and he laughed .
" okay son it is late you can stay and sleepover , I am tired and you should your parents they are of course worried . Tell them that you are gonna stay ". Dad said
He looked at Henry and gave him those puppy eyes to stay and sleep at my house .
Few minutes later he finished talking to his mother and she yes but his dad was very angry , guess what? Henry has some issus with his father .
Do not get me wrong , his dad is strict and loves everything to be perfect and he wants everything on time , so Henry don't give a damn hell about any one's opinion when he wants to do anything he do it and you what ? Try to stop him if you can !
Henry :" They are fine sir , but ..." Baba cuts him " no buts okay go to Jake and some comfortable clothes , good night "
" Good night baba , don't wake us up tomorrow is Saturday " I said and kissed dad on the cheek .
Now back to my lovely issue with Henry " Yo where I am going to sleep , oh wait your king sized bed seems a good option " he said .
We both ran fast as we can and jumped on the bed and ughhh I hate this situation when look deeply in someone's eyes like hellur sugar mama what the hell .
" Like what you see " I teased
" Eww that is so old , I think grandma says this my grandpa " he said laughing way too hard .
" Hahahah ... What za hellz . I am so tired to argue now get out because Baba will be soon pissed , take this it is from Jake , yala "
" Dang it I know you want to stay all night with me all night but okay " he said but he is right because I want to stay all night with him chatting and talking but wait I have an idea !
" Henryyyyyy !"I said but it was creepy as hell .
" What za hell you are very tired you need to sleep " he said taking step backwards.
" No wait we can watch horror movie down stairs mohwaaaaabhahabahah "I laughed evilly .
" Oh boy " he said scared then he added " Okay well tomorrow we don't have school so I am in , what do you want to watch?"
" Weeeeeeeelllllllll oh ...aha..m..um..The Nun , is that good?Cause I didn't watch yet !"
" Okay , but your parents they will so pissed and brother and sister what about them ? " he asked.
" Well we can invite Jake so... No he is going to prank us the whole night and I am not NOT ready for  his childish behaviors " I said looking so angry and I think I was about to kill every because I am hungry !!!
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