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What was that ?

After taking a whole hour for preparing ourselves , baba and mama were ready to go .
" Baba I am ready" I shouted from upstairs .
Then I saw baba talking with Henry about something which was really weird because it seemed serious and deep . What would baba be  talking  about now here and with Henry ?
When I came closer to them they both looked at each other and stopped talking.
"What was that ?" I asked annoyed .
"What was what ?" Henry  asked nervously .
"I wasn't born yesterday , and you know what as you like !" I said trying to run to the car immediately not looking back because I am not ready for anything .
Few minutes later, baba and mama came directly to the car .
The drive was silence , and when we arrived I took a deep breath looking at all the graves .
It is so hard to lose someone that you love , that you really love from your bottom of you heart and it is weird when you don't see them . It feels like there is a missing  piece that you can't replace it with anything else .
We walked to my brother's grave , and I sat down trying to think what to tell him .
Baba and mama were both looking away they didn't want to see or hear what I was doing , cause every time they will end up crying .
"Hey little brother , how are you? " Hot tears were falling .
"I am not doing well to be honest , I feel weak and I hate feeling it . I wanted to be strong but I can't . They got me so bad , these negative thoughts got me so bad . And I am scared that I would get cheated on" the last part I whispered it.
"I dreamt about it well I don't know what was that about , if he did cheat or not   But I hate thinking about !" I said trying to imagine my little brother sitting on coach and listening to me. The picture itself makes me sob and I don't know why .
"I missed you so much " I said whiping my tears away .And I was ready to go back home .
We walked to car and I waited for parents to say something  but they didn't .
Baba stopped the car to get something from the store , while waiting in the car , I saw a pregnant woman standing and a man standing next to her . And few seconds later he gave her a smile and walked .
She seemed sad or disappointed from his action , and actaully I don't know why I am looking at her ! I am weird I know don't judge me .
I don't want to be left by someone that love and trust , I don't want to be alone and see people couples around me ... This topic is making me so mad and sad and when I think about it my mood immediately becomes messed up .
When dad came back he gave me a bag full of chocolate and stuff   I think I am getting hungry .
When we reached my house , a silver BMW(X5) car is parked out there .  And I knew it is my mother's sister . I missed them all .
When we entered the house I found my cousins sitting with Karmen and Henry is no where to found .
Henry...
I called him and called him for a couple times but he didn't answer me . OK I guess well go to hell . I really hate people when they don't pick up the phone call .
So I said hi to all the visitors at sat on the coach next to my aunt .
"How are you summer ? How are you feeling ? How is life sweet heart ?" Lana asked me .
"I am fine aunty and life is okay I guess" I replied not wanting to open a full discussion about me like they came here not to talk to me they want to visit me parents .
And I walked away to the kitchen to make nescaffe like I really need it right now .
After doing it and headed straight to my room and changed my clothes into pyjama . And here I am sitting on the bed thinking about what should I do for Monday . I really need to  focus on my work at school like I don't wanna be stressed and stuff . So put my earphones and got everything prepared to start studying . Actually I don't know from where did this energy come ! So I spent five hours studying Mathematics and Biology and chemistry .
To be honest I hate math but I love Biology so much and the Chemistry too.
I think I didn't eat the whole , I got down stairs and headed to the kitchen to find something to eat .
Mama"Summer come here please " she shouted from the living room.
I went straight to the living room I saw baba sitting on the couch and he is smoking and wearing his eyeglasses damn I never saw him wearing them from a long time . I think I zoned out because my mum was talking with me .
"Summer sweety , why did you do that with Henry ?"
"What? I didn't do anything with him ! What are you talking about ma?"
"Well you didn't say goodbye when you left and I think you were mean to him a little bit ". When said this .
I think I was mad as hell , I gave a look and she murmured something but couldn't hear it .
When I look at her , she was wearing jeans and a white T-shirt , oh I didn't realize that I was zoning out again until mama shaked my shoulder.
" Summer this isn't a way for answering questions ,honey you keep zoning out. Is everything okay between you guys?" I think she is talking about Henry .
"No" is all I said .
"Then honey look you call him and say sorry for acting this way ". I wished at this moment that the floor cracks and swallow me .
" Mum I called many times but he didn't answer any of my calls so it is his fault not mine " I said immediately and went straight to the kitchen because this topic ticks me off so I don't want to argue with anyone .
After eating I went upstairs to my room because I really want to relax but then I saw my phone ringing and Ethane photo popped out .
"Hey wassup summer , are you okay ? I am so worried about you . What happened to you ? You went to the hospital yesterday and didn't talk about it and now ..." I cut him "Ethane jeez calm down I am totally okay just having a  bad time , and about the hospital I just got an allergic reaction so don't worry about me " I laughed a little bit because he kept asking me if I was okay .
Ethane is my friend he is so energetic and always hyped .
"Summer what happened between you and Henry ?"
This question made me silenced for a few seconds but it felt like hours .
"Girl answer , are you still here with me ?"
"Yeah yeah I am but actually I don't know what happened !" I said looking at every thing in my room , oh I should really organize it .
After hanging up with Ethan because he said that he was glad that I am OK and he didn't want to push me for talking about me and Henry .