Tom Holland imagines

Hidden T.H

Sorry it has been so long since I've updated so here's another story for ya

TRIGGER WARNING: swearing, suicide attempts ⚠️

Tom to the public eye was this handsome, bubbly, happy go lucky guy, and he was most of the time, but that's only what the public saw.

Being Tom's girlfriend meant that I saw the parts of him that where hidden from the rest of the world. He was a sensitive, loving guy, who had his insecurities and doubts just as everyone else did.

Whenever he was stressed or overwhelmed from bottling everything up from the press, he would always talk to me about it, sometimes it took a bit of convincing but eventually he would always open up and show his vulnerable side, something I admired most about him.

But lately, he has hardly spoken one word to me. He would come home from work, greeting me with with a small smile before showering and going straight to sleep. He would barely eat and go outside unless it was for work and I was starting to get really worried.

The last couple of nights I had woken up to the sound of him crying but just brushed it off as having a nightmare and saying that he was fine. At first i brushed it off as him being tired and stressed but for the past 2 months he has been looking terribly skinny and sad, the light that usually sparkles in his eyes, is dark.

I was out for lunch with my friend when my phone started buzzing, pulling it out and seeing Tom's little brother Sam's contact pop up. Bringing the phone to my ear, I heard the frantic breathing and soft crying in the background.

"Y/n, y/n please get here, please hurry" Sam says frantically. "Sam what's wrong? What's going on?" I ask, concerned at all the commotion going on the in the background of the call. "It's Tom, we heard crying coming from the bathroom but the door is locked. Y/n, we're scared he's going to do something, something to hurt himself, please hurry!" Sam rambles crying to hold on his cries to explain the situation. "I'm coming now, hold on" I say quickly and stand from the table. My friend sensed the urgency of the situation and let me leave without a word spoken.

I raced to my car and drove as quickly as I could down the familiar road to the Holland home, I just hoped that he wouldn't do anything before I got there.

As soon as I got there I raced in the door and up the stairs to the bathroom, seeing Sam, Harry and Paddy all standing there, Sam banging on the door and Harry hugging a crying Paddy. I told Harry to take Paddy downstairs as I approached a yelling Sam.

"Sam, where's Nikki and Dom?" I asked, wondering why they weren't here. "They went on a trip for the weekend, aren't meant to be back until tomorrow evening. I figured I would call you first because they wouldn't get here fast enough anyway" he replied, pacing in front of the bathroom door. "Okay, go downstairs to Harry and Paddy and I will sort this out" I said quickly, wanting the hurry and get Tom out.

As soon as he walked down the stairs, I hit the door with my fists, feeling the concern and panic start to settle in.

"Tom, Tom babe talk to me" I repeated but the only reply I got was more cries, now I was starting to panic. "Tom, unlock the door sweetheart, it's okay, it's just me, just open for me and talk to me, please" I begged and begged.

"I can't, I-I just want it to go away" his sobs increased and I fished the find a bobby pin of some sort in my purse. I luckily found one and went straight to the lock, finally getting it open and swinging the open, only to find Tom sat on the tile floor, back against the wall with his knees to his chest, and a blade in his hand and placed at his wrist.

I dived to the floor and snatched the blade from him before he could do anything major to injure himself and tears started to flow gradually down my cheeks. As soon as the blade left his hand, he went to grab it again, only for my to hold onto his hands and hug him, stopping him from moving, by he kept on trying to struggle free.

"No what are you doing!? I need that, I-i can't! I need to finish it, I need to end it!" He shrieked, trying to push me away but I only held on tighter.

Meanwhile, downstairs sat a now hysterical Paddy with a crying Sam and Harry, hearing what their eldest brother was yelling, and confirming their suspicions.

Eventually he grew tired of trying to escape and was now sobbing in my arms, his tears wetting my shirt, and mine dampening his hair. He clutched at my shirt and I clutched at his, thankful that I got to him when I did.

"Why?" I whispered, my voice cracking. "I just wanted it to go away" he whispered back, his voice strained from all the yelling and crying. "What to go away? Darling talk to me" I asked gently. "I wanted all of it to go away, the stress, the anxiety, the insecurities and feeling as though your never good enough, the feeling that everyone hates you, all of it"

"Thomas listen to me" I said firmly, cupping his cheeks and looking him dead in the eye. "You are more than enough, you are smart, kind, caring, loving, funny and enthusiastic, everything anyone could want in a brother, a son, a friend, a boyfriend" I said lovingly, "nobody hates you angel, we love you more than you will ever know. But when all of the stress and anxiety get too much, talk to me love, I'll always be here for you, so will your friends and your family, you don't need to hide your emotions, we love you so much, and would be lost if you left us" I started to tear up again and so did he.

He pulled me back into a kiss which I returned instantly, putting all of my passion and love for him into that one kiss. Once we parted, I stood up and grabbed a wet cloth, cleaning the little bit of blood from his wrist gently and kneeled in front of him.

"We love you so much, I love you so much, please never forgot that" I whispered softly, caressing his cheeks with my thumbs.

"I won't, I promise" he said as he hugged me away, I sighed with relief and exhaustion, the adrenaline finally wearing off, as was his. We got up and got changed, climbing into bed and he brought me into his arms.

"I'm so sorry y/n I put you through that, thank you...for everything"

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Quite a sad one but that's okay, again sorry ya been so long since I've updated but I've been busy with school.