HYACENTH'S POV
TODAY is monday at dalawang araw ko ng iniiwasan si Lester. He keep on calling and texting me pero I just keep on ignoring him. Lalo na kanina sa classroom. Mantinding iwas ang ginagawa ko.
Si Ariann naman ay hindi pa rin ako pinapansin. Alam kung galit siya kaya dapat sabihin ko na kay Lester ang totoo. Pero wala pa talaga akong lakas ng loob.
Tuesday has passed pero ganun pa rin. Wednesday tumawag ang kambal ko at si mommy. They said that they have a big suprise daw kaya ako excited na kung ano yun lalo na si dad. Thursday, Lester and his cousins tried to talk to me pero I keep on ignoring them. My friends said that I should really talk to Lester and tell the truth. Friday, kinausap ako nina Jackie at Nolly. Ayaw ko pa sana pero they insist.
Nandito kami ngayon sa field.
"Ano ba ang sasabihin niyo? Uuwi na ako eh."
"Who are you?" sabi ni Jackie.
"Huh?"
"Who are you?" tanong niya ulit.
Shit. Bigla akong namutla. Alam na ba nila? Si Nolly naman ay seryosong nakatingin sa akin. Hindi ako sanay na ganito sila saakin.
"W-what are y-you talking a-about?" nauutal kung saad. Kinakabahan ako baka alam na nila at alam na din ni Lester.
"Stop playing innocent, Hya. Or should I say Hyacenth Ynah Castroverde?." sabi ni nolly and he grin.
Para naman akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa sinabi niya.
"Oh, you look pale." Biro ni Jackie.
"A-ahm, H-how did y-you k-know?"
"Oh, simple. My dad met your mom at America yesterday with Hyacinth Anne your twin, right? So, sabi ko paano yun eh nandito ka sa pilipinas. Sabi ko pa nga kay dad ay baka hindi ikaw yun. But dad said that na si Hyacinth talaga yun. So, we take our research. Napag alaman namin ni Jackie na nag papanggap ka na si Hyacinth Anne. Kasi si Hyacinth nandun sa America kasama ang mom niya. Totoo ang sinabi ni Lester na umuwi si Hyacinth dito pero iba na ang nakita niya at ikaw iyon. Kasi umuwi na kaagad si Hyacinth sa America with her mom." sabi ni Nolly.
Shit. I'm crying. They already know. Omygod.
"Stop crying, baka sabihin pa nila na pinapaiyak ka namin." si Jackie.
"I-im sorry. I'm sorry."
"Bakit mo niloko si Lester? Bakit ka nag panggap ha Hyacenth Ynah. Kung sabagay magka mukhang mag ka mukha naman talaga kayo" at tumawa pa siya ng pagak. He looks mad.
"A-hm, kilala ko na kasi si Lester noon pa pinakilala siya saakin ni kambal. Pero sa picture lang. Una ko palang siyang nakita sa picture at the way kambal introduce him to me I already like him and I know it's not right. And the nalaman ko na naghiwalay na sila. I shouldn't be happy pero yun yung naramdaman ko. My twin didn't introduce me to Lester kasi I don't want. Nahihiya akong kilalanin siya. Kaya my twin didn't tell me about Lester." Paliwanag ko.
"So, bakit hindi ka kaagad nagsabi ng totoo? Bakit ka pa nag panggap. Madami ka ng oras na nasayang. You should tell him the truth." Jackie.
"Sinubukan ko. I tried pero wala na akong lakas ng loob. Because I already fall for him. I already love him."
"Problema yan." si Nolly.
"Alam na ba to ni Lester?" kinakabahan ako kasi siguro alam niya na din kasi alam na ng mga pinsan niya.
"Hindi pa, kasi gusto namin ikaw ang mag sabi sa kanya ng totoo. At sasabihin mo yan ngayon."
"Oo nga, he's already coming." sabi ni Jackie.
"Huh?"
"Look at your back." sabi ni nolly kaya agad akong lumingon. Shit. Lester is coming. No. No. No. No.
"No, not now please. Hindi ko pa kaya." sabi ko kina Jackie at Nolly.
"Huwag mo ng patagalin pa, Hyacenth. Sige na sabihin muna."
At tuluyan na ngang nakalapit si Lester.
"Baby....." fvck. His voice is hurting me.
No, hindi ko pa kaya ngayon. I can't.
"Baby, please talk to me. I miss you so much. Please you're always avoiding me." he pleaded.
Omaygad. I'm sorry Lester.
"Please baby, ano bang nagawa ko? Yung about ba dun sa Clinton na yun please baby. Talk to me please." at hinawakan niya yung kamay ko. Parang iiyak na siya. Omaygad. Lester. Don't cry. I'm not Hyacinth. I'm not her. I can't take this anymore. I'm not ready yet.
"Sorry guys." At tinignan sina Nolly at Jackie "I can't do it right now. Just give me time. And I'll do everything." umiyak na ako sa sinabi ko.
"Why are you crying, baby? What are you talking about? Please I'm begging talk to me." pakiusap niya.
"Nolly and Jack. Sorry. Please, just give me time. Sorry, I need to leave." after I said that I left them.
I left Lester crying and it breaks my heart.
I'm sorry this is all my fault.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Ex-Boyfriend Of My Twin Sister (COMPLETED)
Teen Fiction"I'm not asking you to love me back, but please learn to forgive me." - Hyacenth Ynah Castroverde
