fear of goodbyes | mah

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i didn't realise how long it's been. i'm so sorry ksjdksk ily all❤️
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Caroline's POV

Being with Harvey was like a dream. He was perfect in every way. Just the way his hair fell to one side, and his cute smile. Oh and don't even get me started on his blushes. When he blushes he tries to hide it by looking down, but I love it.

Laying my head on his chest as he sleeps is a plus too. His breathing is steady and I can hear his heartbeat. I hate heartbeats. It makes me anxious and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the fact that at any moment, it could stop. I have a fear of listen to someone's heartbeat and hearing it just stop. I move my head down so I couldn't listen. I could still hear it no matter how far down I got. And if i went any further I'd be on his...yeah I'm getting up.

I sat up and looked down at him. So adorable. I carefully got out of the bed without him waking up and examined the room. We all had a sleepover for the first night together. Via was still passed out on the floor and Max was clinging to her.

I walked downstairs and immediately regretted it. Someone had left the window open and freezing air was pouring through. I don't know about you, but I absolutely hate the cold. I'm already cold all the time and I don't need the airs help.

I closed the window and realised the house was too quiet. It was one in the afternoon already. Everyone should be up by now. Or at least Sara and Paul. I tiptoed to their room and peeked in. They weren't there so I tip toe ran out to the living room again. Their car was gone. They must have went somewhere. Tilly and Leo had to have gone with them since they weren't in their beds either.

i shrugged it off and went back upstairs to grab my phone. When I walked in, everyone was still sleeping, except one. Harvey was sitting straight up and was looking at me.

"You don't think you can leave me so easily without me noticing do you?" He smiled.

Oh his smile. Such a bright thing. I bet his smile could light up an entire room when he walked in. Everyone would look in awe at the sight. His smile was big and genuine. That's what i loved so much about it. The fact that every time he did it, it was genuine.

I tip toed over to him and grabbed his hand. Before I lead him downstairs, I grabbed my phone, as that was the original goal. I pulled him along, but he wasn't moving very fast.

"Come on Harvey, am I gonna have to drag you all the way?" I look back at him.

He's still half asleep and i don't think he even heard a word I said. I wave my hand in front of his face. When that doesn't work, I think of one thing that will always work. I kissed him. Just a peck was enough to make his eyes light up. I smiled.

"There's my boy! Now come on."

I grabbed his hand once more and finally he cooperated.

"Are you hungry? Do you want me to make you something?" He asked.

I shook my head and thanked him for offering. I wasn't a big breakfast person.

"Oh come on, you don't even want my special chocolate chip pancakes?" He asked, trying to tempt me.

"You burn everything you put in the oven, so I think we'll all say a big no to that one." I hear behind me.

Max and Via has come downstairs now too. Squad was awake.

"I do not! I'm a great cook!"

Max scoffs. "Yeah and I'm the king of England."

Harvey makes a sad face and pouts. He looks at me.

"Do you still wanna try them Cara?"

"How could I say no to that face?"

He beams and hurry's to get everything out. I hope these are as good as he says.