HIM [Finished]

CONFUSION

I wake up before Cardo and I notice that I am laying on his chest with his arms around me. When did this happen yesterday? I don't even remember. I try to get up and then Cardo wakes up.

"JAY WHAT THE HELL?" he yells at me and jumps up.

"I am just as confused as you are. I have no idea how we end up this way. I swear."

The look on his face was so confused. Shit, even I was confused. So I got up.

"Hey let's forget about it. How about I make breakfast and you go grab your books out the car and we start the project. Okay?" I say as I gather the blankets from the couch.

This moment felt so awkward. The look on his face was a huge turn off. How we got so mad.  After I put the blankets away I started breakfast. Cardo put his shirt on and headed for his car to gather his books.

CARDO POINT OF VIEW

I know exactly how Jay landed on my chest. I put him there. I didn't want him to sleep on the floor and get cramps. I don't know what is going on but, I didn't mean to freak out on Jay the way I did. I had to make it up to him somehow. I have a idea, he can hang out with me more so I can make it up to him. Lately I have been so confused. Jay makes me rethink everything I thought I knew about myself. But I wasn't going to tell him that.

BACK TO THE STORY!

" Here come eat." 

At this point I'm pissed. To me it was the perfect moment to wake up in your crushes arm. It hurts when you have feelings that you can't act upon. A part of me wanted to cry. I know we just met but I felt like him not knowing I liked him was like hiding a secret. That was the last thing I wanted to do to him. He told me about his last relationship and how communication was such a huge thing for him. Part of me felt like I should leave him alone. I almost did but Cardo surprised me. And honestly I'm glad he did. I was about to give up. I am so happy I didn't.

"Hey J, I'm sorry about how I reacted this morning. I want to make it up to you. How about we hang out later today after we finish this project?"

He wanted to hang out with me after the event that happened this morning? What made him change his mind? A part of me felt like he knew exactly what happened. Or maybe I wanted him too. Of  course I wanted to spend time with Cardo. 

"Sure, why not. And it's okay."

And we didn't bring it back up. We worked on the project and we got done around noon. I had to text T.

*jay* " Don't get mad but me and Cardo are going to hang out today so, our plans are cancelled I'll make it up to you. Promise.

* t* " Use protection love you."

*jay* " I hate you, nothing is going to happen."

*t* " Sure, just have fun and I WANT ALL THE DIRTY DETAILS."

*jay* " your a mess, bye t."

I close my phone.

" Hey, let me grab my things for the pool and we can head out."

Before I could leave Cardo hugged me.

" I'm sorry man. I hope we can still be friends?"

"Of course."

I did want to be his friend. I did but, I wanted more. I needed more. I wanted to see if there could be more. I gathered my things and we left. I looked out the window with my hands out as the music played. We laughed as we made fun of the people driving and the artist playing on the radio. I wanted to tell him it could always be this way if he would be with me. Safe, fun, honest. Everything felt right at that moment. We went to the pool and enjoyed each other's company. This was the start of a friendship. I didn't want to ruin our friendship. I had to put my crush on the back burner for now. I didn't want to lose him. But  knowing me this secret was killing me. He had to know. But, when?