HIM [Finished]

THE SECRET IS OUT

Weeks had gone by since I first hung out with Cardo. It was like the three of us were are own group of friends, we got along so well. Everything was going so smooth but I still had a crush on Cardo and getting to know him and see how much of a good guy he was wasn't helping. I had to separate myself from him but it was hard. He was becoming my  best friend. Staying away from Cardo was damn near impossible at this point. 

" So I will catch up with you guys later?" says T. She hugs both of us and leaves.

I start to get my stuff. I get so nervous when it's just me and Cardo. I want to tell him so bad but I've been hurt in the pass. I didn't want to hurt myself again. Cardo was straight he wouldn't waste his time on little old me. So I had to come up with some way to get him to hate me. I would regret it later but it was the only thing I could think of.

" Hey where are you going? We were supposed to hang out today." says Cardo with a look of concern.

" Uh, Yeah. I can't." I say as I get my things and try to leave.

" What do you mean you can't? We have been planning this for weeks. You were so excited to go to the amusement park yesterday. What changed?" he said as he crossed his hands.

I wanted to go with Cardo, I did. It felt too much like a date since it was just going to be me and him. I can't hide the fact that I like him anymore, and since I know he is straight I have to cut my feelings off.

" Look I don't want to hang out with you anymore. I don't think we can be friends. Don't talk to me. I'm sorry."

You should have seen the look on his face he looked so sad. But he wasn't taken no for a answer. The next things that came out of my mouth I wish I could take them back but it was too late.

" You know what your problem is? You think that everything involves around you, that everything has to go your way all the time. It doesn't work that way. I'm tired of your temper. Just leave me alone."

"I don't know where this is coming from. I thought we were friends. Best friends. But no you just let me down like everyone else." he has tears in his eyes now.

I wanted to say "Cardo." but I had to stop myself. It was the only way to let him go. He left and I knew I fucked up once he left. The next events that happened after this were crazy. I started to cry once Cardo left. I pulled out my phone and called T. She was the only one I knew who could help me fix this. Why couldn't I have just told him? I am so stupid I have to fix this.

" T, I did something stupid and I need your help." I say crying. I really need her right now.

" Jay are you crying? What happened? Come over so we can talk about it."

"Okay."

15 minuets later I arrive I am greeted at the door and hugged by my best friend.

" I'm so stupid. I let him go."

" Let him go? Who?"

" Girl you know who. Cardo."

" Aww Jay I'm sorry. But rewind how did you lose him?"

" I said some hurtful things. I was scared to go to the park with him alone tomorrow knowing my feelings." I walk in and sit on the couch as she joins me.

" Why didn't you just tell him? The worst he could say is no. Jay you have to tell him this is killing you."

" But how, when? T."

" Homecoming is coming up! Write him a letter and send it to him telling him your feelings."

" Do you think that would work. Ask him to homecoming? Don't you think that is a little bold?"

" Just write the damn letter and deliver it to his house. I'll grab the paper. You clean your face and write. Then your going to take your beautiful self over there and get your man!"

I smile and hug her.

"You are the best. You know that?"

" I know but do you? Cardo is a good guy it never hurts to ask."

"Okay."

She hands me the paper and smiles at me. I look at the paper and begin to write.

Dear Cardo,

From the moment I saw you at the grocery store I felt this spark that I never felt before. I looked at you and you instantly took my breath away. From that moment on I just had to know you. I'm so sorry I got upset at you the other day. I just have this huge crush on you and I'm not good at words. I know your straight and you would probably never go for me but it is killing me that you don't know my true feelings. If you feel the same let me know. The ball is in your court now. You know where to find me. If you accept this letter I would love for you to be my homecoming date.

- J.

I put the letter in a envelope and headed to Cardo's house. I was just about to ring the doorbell and give him the letter. I look through the window and see him kissing his ex girlfriend. My  heart feels like it's falling out of my chest. I drop the letter and tears fall. I had ran away. Cardo saw me but  I didn't know. It was too late. I had my answer. But I wished I would have stayed a little longer.

Cardo walks outside after he pushes his ex off of him and sees the letter.

"J?"

" What's that?" ex

" Nothing you need to leave. I told you there was nothing between us anymore."

" But you love me" ex

" Well if you loved me you wouldn't have cheated, Now get the hell away from my house before I tell the police."

" Cardo I-" ex

" Don't.  You already did enough."

" Screw you." ex

" Already did. Bye."

She leaves. And I open the letter I sit down on the pouch. It's from Jay...