A Fangirl's Thoughts

Fan Girl's Letter

Dear Bias,

Hi there you. How are you? (Like I really don’t know what you’re up to everyday.) Well I’m writing this down to you because I want you to know how happy I am seeing you today. I hope noticed me amongst the crowd, or even heard me screaming out your name. If not, I hope you noticed my signboard I spent three nights working on. And if you did, I hope you liked it. I hope you read it.

Maybe you think I’m annoying. Maybe you think this letter isn’t really as cool as those piled up around you, but please do continue reading.

I may not be the prettiest face on the crowd. I may not be as intelligent as the others. I may not be cool enough for you. I can’t dance, can’t even sing. I’m not even above the average girl. Not even your type as much as I know you. But there’s one thing I think I can do best. And that’s staying.

Yes, it’s exhausting. Yes it’s tiring. And yes, I’m one of those crazy teenagers that are obsessed with you. Sometimes when I watch your videos, I cry simply because you’ve been so cool from the start to the end. Your voice is the first and last thing I hear almost every day. Sometimes when I’m alone in my room, I pretend that you’re there talking to me. (Yes! That happened twice, really.) I even get so shy if I’m naked inside my room with all your pictures all over the wall. I remember every quoted word you say, every fashion statement, every hairstyle and every hair color that I make my stylist copy.

My life will never be complete without you in it. So I’m thanking you for that. You made me who I am now.

There also are alone times when I imagine my future. When the moment comes that my kids find a yellowed picture in a scrapbook I’ve always kept, and ask me who it was. I I’ll say;

"He’s the man that made my life so meaningful. He taught me how to be contented with just a picture, be eternally happy with just a dance practice video and be devastated because of a tweet that he has a girlfriend. He’s the guy whom I gave my whole heart to.” He’s you. I’d tell them stories about you and how you changed my life in a way I’d never had it any better.

I love you. I seriously do. I know it’d never be me whatever I do but if someday you get married (…..) I wish you only all the happiness in the world.

I know she’ll be perfect for you.

I know you’ll love her like you’ll ever do.

So now the only thing I can do,

is continuing supporting you.

To my dearly beloved bias, and to my favorite band; there are thousands of people out here whose lives were saved by you. I love you guys, so so much.

                                                                                                Love,                                                                    

                                                                                    some girl in the crowd