Best Friends with Eleanor Calder

Chapter 3

I sit up in my bed and look at Eleanor in fear.

"Shh everything will be okay." She says soothing me. I nod slowly.

"Eleanor." I blurt out.

"Yes?"

"I like him back but I don't want him to..." I say trailing off letting out a loud sob. She nods rubbing my back.

"I will leave you to sleep ok?"

I nod and roll over turning the lights out. Once she leaves I take out my flashlight and diary. Excuse its my JOURNAL not my diary, J-O-U-R-N-A-L.

September 17, 2012

I moved in with the boys today, and Zayn loves me. I think I love him back but Ryan, I don't think I can trust him... Somebody knocks on my door, Well someone's at the door so goodbye.

Until next time- Court.

The door opens and there stands Zayn. MY breath gets caught in my throat, this is when I realize, I love him. I in love with Zayn Malik of One Direction, Fuck. I smile weakly as he heads over.I quickly hide my JOURNAL under the matress like always. He climbs onto the bed with me.

"Nice diary." he says smirking as his hand brushes against my hand causing me to turn a deep red.

"its not a diary, its a journal." I say defending myself.

"Dont be embarressed love I think its good to write your feelings out."

I smile at him and giggle.

"Everything alright though? You don't look sick." HE says. I pale up.

"Hey hey no need to tell me until your ready." HE says rubbing his hand across my back.

Zayn's POV

"Hey hey no need to tell me until your ready." I reassure her rubbing her back. She is just drop dead gorgeous. I love her and I have only known her for like 3 hours.

***The next morning still Zayn's POV***

I walk down the stairs. The sound of my boots hitting against the stairs. El, Dani, and Miss beautiful herself Courtney are all surronding the kitchen counter along with the lads. I smile weakly.

"Hey we are going shopping with the ladies, you in Bradfor Bad Boi?" Louis ask. Courtney giggles, uhh why does she do that? She is so adorable when she giggles. I think about her journal. I know its wrong, but I want to know. She might never tell me.

"Nah Im good, I will wait here!" I say. Liam raises his eyebrow and I glance down at my feet.

"well better off get going now." Liam says cheerily. They waltze out of the door and I quickly turn and run up to Courtney's room. I bend down to the matress. Cmon where is it? I feel my hand hit something book like. Found it. I sit down on the bed and start reading.

November 2, 2011

Well ladies and gentleman this is Courtney Mcalister here LOL. No I found this in my attic, excuse me, Eleanor and I's attic and I met a guy and I think he's the one so I will tell you all about him throughout this journal. IT IS NOT A DIARY!  Well his name is Ryan, he has a nice blonde quiff and really blue eyes you can just get lost in.

The next few entries are just like this until I hit one that really caught my eye.

March 2 2012

I dont know what's going on, Ryan wants more than me, he got drunk then hit me. I can't believe it, all those times when he said he loved me he was lying, oh god I hope he doesnt do that again.

I feel my face go pale and hurridly skip through the pages.

March 28, 2012

After all we have been through he goes and does this... Its too hard to say bluntly but I will tell you the scene.

"Get in here you little bitch." Ryan growls at me.

I whimper, "Ryan no."

He walks up to me and tears my shirt off. He admires my stomach before taking a knife and cutting my stomach, he actually cut in a word.HE reaches for my pants button.

"Ryan what are you doing? NOOO!" I shout at him bursting into tears. He picks me up against my will and brings me up to my room and ties me to the head board. Im sorry I cant continue this, but the next morning Eleanor found me naked tied to the bed all bruised and cut and called the police. Although he is in jail nothing can change about what has happened. I will never fall in love again.

I feel tears well up in my eyes, how could somebody do this to her? She is just so god..argh beautiful. If I meet that Ryan guy there will be no tomorrow to him. Damn it. I skip to her last entry

September 17, 2012

I moved in with the boys today, and Zayn loves me. I think I love him back but Ryan, I don't think I can trust him...  Well someone's at the door so goodbye.

Until next time- Court.

She must have heard me, I love her too but her words are stuck in my head, "I will never fall in love again." I never want to hurt her, but I just love her so much. I put the journal back into its spot then walk downstairs. Right when I sit down on the couch, the door opens.

Courtney's POV

Shopping was so much fun, the boys let me buy basically everything. Liam opens up the flat door to reveal a sad looking Zayn on the couch.

"Li can I talk to you in private?" He croaks out. Hmm wonder about what. They walk into Liam's room and I lean up against the door.

"Liam.." HE says sadly.

"Dude whats wrong?"

"Its Court..." He says trailing off. I feel myself stiffen up. Could he? No he couldn't possibly know.

"What about her?"

"Liam she was raped and abused by her ex boyfriend." I start letting out silent sobs and I can hear Zayn whimpering on the other side of the door. How did he know? I didn't tell him and I am absolutely positive Eleanor would have never said anything, she promised she wouldn't.

"Did she tell you?" Liam asks queitly. I strain my ears so I can hear.

"Not exactly." He says almost guilty.

"Then how do you know?" Liam questions.

"I read her journal." I felt my bones just snap there and I fling open the door. If I was a volcano lets just say I would have already exploded. The boys and El and Dani come running up the stairs.

"YOU DID WHAT?! YOU DICK!" I scream at Zayn tears overflowing my eyes.

"Courtney calm down." Liam says biting his lip.

"NO I WON'T HE READ MY PRIVATE MEANING NOBODY WAS MEANT TO READ IT JOURNAL! THATS SUCH AN INVASION! AND ZAYN I WOULD TELL YOU JUST NOW IS NOT THE TIME, BUT NO LITTLE ZAYN HAS TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME BECAUSE YOU CARE SO MUCH BUT I AM JUST PROBABLY A LITTLE CRUSH! ZAYN YOU ARE THE FIRST PERSON I HAVE EVER THOUGHT ABOUT LOVING  SINCE RYAN ABUSED AND RAPED ME. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD THAT IS?!"  I scream in his face. Eleanor grabs my arm. The 3 boys and Danielle gasp looking at Zayn. My eyes are stinging with tears as Niall picks me up bridal style and leads me into his room.